Saturday 12/2 Day 4
Last night was my 'regular' night. It's amazing how you think differently about it now then straight after you last did it. Like when I started this, I thought it would be a snap. 40 days? That's nothing! I got the willpower. But last night I realised 40 days is a long time.
A FUCKING long time.
It's like when you were a kid, and during the day you could think about scary things and not be scared. But at night you'd be freaked because you thought things were hiding in the dark.
That's what it's like. You think so differently. It's like there's a voice in my head going "Why are you doing this? You can't last for 40 days. You can't stop these things from happening.
But I know that if I jack off, I will instantly regret it, because I will snap back to my normal frame of mind. I will have let myself down.
Let me tell you, it was a long night.
Patrick_Moore and king-o-games. Are you still with me brothers?