At 10/24/04 11:10 PM, CapnJack wrote:
I need help. I have always believed in God and sometimes believed that I have felt His presence, yet no matter how much I've prayed, I have never had a sign that could not be discounted as a coincidence (although I do not necessarily believe that they are coincidences). The closer I tried to get to him, the more I realized it was harder to get close to Him. The more I asked Him to come into my heart, to do what He wants with me, the more I ended up sinning.
God works in mysterious way, first and above all remember that. Also remember that the signs he gives may not be signs that are tangable. You need to realize that he is with you. Always. Even if you dont know it.
This is a good time to tell one of my favorite stories. It isnt a Bible Story, but I still love it.
A man was walking down a beach with God (the beach symbols his life) and threw his whole life he sees two sets of footprints. One set are his and the other are God's. Then he sees the times in his life that were the hardest, but during those times there are only one set of footprints. He is devistated by this. What did he do wrong? Why hadent God walked with him during the worst moments in life? So he asks God "Why, when I needed you the most, did you abandon me?"
To him God answers "My son I was always with you"
So the man screams "Then why were there only one set of footprints?"
God said to the man, "My son, those were the times I carried you"
So remember dude, even if you dont feel it, God is still, and will always, be with you.
maybe there is something bad in me that makes Him reject me.
Thats Satan, and he will always try to find away to sway you from God, dont loose faith. Keep beliving.
Yet, sometimes I feel so thankful, because I feel like He has had a direct influence on my life.
He has, He certanily has.
Basically, I'm really confused... I do not doubt his existence, although I am not sure of it; however, I feel very disheartened. I need Him and I need to know the truth.
Like I said He is always with you. If you need the truth there are two ways to get it. The Bible and through Prayer.
other thousands of other religions and beliefs, problems of the people of Christianity
There are, but you just have to keep faith in our God. He is the One.
and I feel more confused than I ever have been. Without Him I feel dead, yet the more I seek Him, the more He confuses me.
He may confuse you. But remember we humans are imperfect. We just might not be albe to understand Him.
Do I sound crazy? Maybe I am... but I like it that way =).
Not crazy, your just dealing with your own doubts. We all have them. But I dont understand you like having them?
Help.
In every way I can.