At 3/24/08 12:37 PM, Black-Lightning wrote:
I keep getting messages on myspace from Ember saying "No one cares what you have to say" so why does she read my bulletins?
Cause she's still uber-pissed at you, and you still still haven't fixed that. Quit complaining and just fix it. Say you're sorry and don't be such a bastard this time. Quit acting like you didn't do anything to deserve her treatment, because you did. From what I've seen you've been a bastard every time you talk to her, and you just make her hate you more.
Just apologize for everything you've done and end it. Don't blame her for anything. She knows what she's done and who's fault it is, and she doesn't need you to tell her. Don't even hint that something's her fault. Plenty of things are her fault, but this is apologizing time, not blaming time. In a few weeks you'll be talking together this whole thing, and maybe you can do a little blaming then, but right now you just need to apologize for all the stupid shit you did and she'll stop.
And quit looking for excuses like insomnia. You're having sleep problems because of her, but you don't do anything. You just take all your problems and bitch, and then you go "Lots of people are depressed two months after a break up, so it's alright if I stay depressed more." Well it's not fucking alright. Get your head straight and find something else to make you happy. There's about a million different things you could do, and a good number of those you'd enjoy a lot more than moping around being a little bitch.
Don't drink or smoke for at least two weeks. That'll just bring you right back to where you are right now. Just look for something new and really fun to do and enjoy it. Don't worry, you won't forget about her. You'll just think of what's happened in a more positive light.
And don't live in the past or you'll never do something with your life. Instead of fixing your life when it goes bad, you'll just think about the good times and leave the bad as they are. Don't forget all the fun you had together, but realize that it's over. That part of your life is over, and now it's time to start the next part.
How long's it been since you've helped someone here? You used to help people all the time, and now you just complain about your problems. If you fix yourself, you'll probably be fixing other people's problems shortly after, and that'd make you feel even better.
Why not take a short vacation this weekend or next to just get away from things. Find something you'd really like to do and just go do it. I think you'll feel a LOT better afterwards. Of course do this after apologizing. :)