i'm ad, and i'm a fuck up. i've done lots of cool things and been successful in many places, but time and time again i have allowed my shitty behavior and my "i'm so good, i don't even have to try" attitude to completely boof me in the pucker. i've been made a fool of, isolated from friends, kicked out homes, schools, teams, and eventually even the army.
-when i was in high school i played football and ran track. i was fucking fast. all my coaches, teammates, etc. built up my ego and convinced me that i had this super-human unnatural running talent. some coaches even talked about "olympic potential" and "endorsements"(since i'm a white-guy, motherfuckers would eat that shit up, too. i still actually hold some records throughout schools in the ny area for the 100m dash.) with all these gold medals piling up in my room, people patting me on the back, up my ass, and sucking my cock telling me how great i was gonna be, i started showing up to practices even less to smoke herb, chase after girls, and goof off. then, showing up to meets baked and drinking soda/eating food just before i had to run. obviously, i stopped doing so great... and rather than admit that i could stand to use the practice and needed to get it together, i just quit all together. pissing away something real good, so that on days like today i could say, "yo. look at me, i could have been something fuckin great."
i could name off hundreds of examples why i'm a motivationless fuck up, but i'll leave it at just that one. i think it speaks volumes and maybe it'll have a positive effect on someone who reads it. peace.