the reason I have such a complex with this word was because it was the first word I used back in the day on prodigy at the age 13... I was never corrected on it and now I think I have over used it as I am not black and it is not my place to define it... I would like to apologize to the black community for using it... I don't feel like I am an extremely raciest person... or racest at all, for me it has been an exploration into black culture.. and I guess I did cross the line on purpose once or twice, I hope you people understand.. I am the ignorant one for over using the term and I personal think it's nothing more than name calling.. kind of like the Christians who were first called disciples at anticoc....