Yeah I play Jackbox all the time when I've been drinking and I usually go up and I get six regular tacos, a medium order of curly fries, sometimes a bacon cheeseburger, or maybe if I'm feeling really bad, an oreo cookie shake, but that's not very often man, and I actually haven't drank in about three weeks. I'm trying to be sober, my old roommate and I got into a fight and it feels like a breakup, man, but he was the main instigator as to why we drink. Hell we fought ABOUT alcoholism, so I'm in a much better place. A margarita for dinner, or a beer at my new place over the weekend, but in the wake of our falling out is a social void...and I'm not sure if it's missing the human interactions with people I used to call friends who were always there for seven goddamn years, or if its a chemical withdrawal from the alcohol...it depresses me when I realize it's not the drinks I crave, but its their interactions...even though now that I've had a chance to step back, I realize they weren't very good friends to begin with. So toxic and negative, and the drinking god, the drinking...it was getting so expensive...it was done completely from home, and we were burning through bottles like crazy...it's no wonder I haven't created in so long. I haven't had the energy or the willpower in so long...so I'm trying to stay sober and it can't be that hard right? Then there's AA meetings and support groups for this kind of shit, I don't think I need it. Its not even being in denial, this doesn't seem like it would be hard, but I'm terrified of the possibility that as time goes on, addiction might rear its ugly head for the first time. For the first time, NEEDING to drink, and that's a sensation that I've never felt before. Been drinking heavily since I was 19...I'll be 30 in November. That's a scary fucking thought.
Anyway, lemme get four tacos, and that's it. Trying to watch my weight.