I guess times that me and my G/F had ahad a huge argument, or perhaps when I was disowned (LOL I was D15-0\/\//\/ 3D)by the rest of my family, or maybe the times of various torment from bullies in grade school, or perhaps when my nanny died. I dont know when I experence too much emotion, my mind just goes numb. At those times I beleive I am most free. I am cold, calculative, and locial. Perhaps it is a psycologicalsafty-mechanism to prevent me from wigging out and gunning down a bunch of ppl.