So earlier this month my school held a poetry jam where students had the option of reading outloud a poem they had wrote. Before we get to the poem, let me clarify a few things.
First off, this school is a therapeutic school. That means there's certainly no retards or major learning disabilities but a ton of mental problems. I'm not going to label anyone with anything though for the sake of poem clarity I have to point out that I suffer from ASD and experience forms of panic attacks.
Second, this poem is far too vague and I don't like that about poetry. However, the poem itself was a message about an event that happened in school directed at the teachers, particularly the school administrators. In order to be able to read the poem at all I had to bypass censors schools put on stuff like that, but thankfully everyone who needed to get the message got it when I finished reading.
Third, the other poems were pretty awesome. Due to private content in some I'm not going to post them without permission but let's just say Robert Frost had nothing on the poems that went up that day, because they were almost all true stories. You haven't read poetry until you read non-fiction of someone getting clocked on the block.
And without further ado, let's get this over with.
Do You Know What I Felt?
I didn't know what to expect
It could be a nightmare or a dream
Was my choice wrong? Was I to pay?
Would I leave pleased or in screams?
My heart pounded...
I had been finally rewarded
Glee followed sighs of relief
I could sleep easy in my bed
There were people and there was hope and change
It was the place of my dreams
There was fun, friends, and joy
But it was not all it seems
More people were coming here
None were as happy as me
They were liars and complainers
Nothing will break my fantasy!
The people had come and they were taking people away
Everyone was being judged all the time, every day
They were going to come for me, eventually, please!
Don't leave me here, don't you know what they will do to me?
I couldn't run, I couldn't hide, I couldn't fight, I couldn't die
Everyone was telling me it was safe but it was all a lie
They were taking me away, they were inflicting great pain
I was crying, I was panicking and they were all to blame!
Why did this all have to happen?
Why couldn't it have stayed the same?
Why would this keep on happening?
Why was this cursed to my name?
They told me that they understood
They told me they felt what I felt
They told me many things, those cheats
Did they know what I had felt?
I had felt utter despair
Horrible pain
Uncontrollable panic
So why did I choose to come back?