Poem - "Cut Off"

[Norwind1986]

CUT OFF
I wrote this on behalf of a friend back in May of 2012. An exchange, of sorts.

Planning to come back like we're old friends
Like you were never gone, you never left
I imagined that when you came, you’d be smiling too
And oh, you are; look at you

Please excuse me, I didn’t mean it
To up and go and leave you to it
Fend for yourself since the world can be so rough
When I left, did I leave you with enough?

You sure didn’t, but who’s keeping track?
I was without love, and under attack
Rain’s cold when you don’t have a coat
Water’s even colder while sinking in your boat

Well, I’m here now, right? Here with you
I’m back to make it all up to you
If you-

Let’s make things perfectly clear
I’m not expecting you to stay around here
Matter of fact, I don’t really want you to
Oh, spare me that look; what are you trying to do?

I shouldn’t have left, now I know
That’s why I’m back, to atone for my lows
I’m so sorry, my child
I was young and dumb; I was wild
God knows that I’m sorry for what I’ve done
It was a wretched thing to bestow on any daughter or son
See? Be happy, now I’m back to help you!
I’m ready and smiling now; why aren’t you?

Looks like you can start just as easily as you stop
Just now realizing you made a mess, so you bring a mop?
There’s a common belief telling children to “Honor thy father and mother.”
Well, that goes both ways, so step back from the rudder
I’m taking my ship onward through my life and away from the past
Go on your way and fly your flag at half-mast

But I-

You what? No, no. You don’t get to speak now!
Are you kidding me? You are absolutely clueless to the thorns in my crown!
The life I endured in your absence is one you will never grasp
I was wounded and broken, and you weren’t there for that
Where the hell were you anyway? Wait; I don’t want to know.
I don’t care, and-

If you don’t care, why’d you ask?
Let me explain, just this once, about the rest

No. I made it this far, and might I add, further than you would
We’re family, but the blood running through our veins is just blood
If I spill it to the street at our feet, it’s red like anyone else’s, right?
It’s not a free ticket to your abandoned kid’s ride
You may be my parent, but I’ve got news for you
I’m faster, smarter, and stronger than you
I became this way in your absence
I’m the best place you’ll never have been
Many terrible, sleepless nights I’d look out my window and pray
Wonder what you’d look like, and what, to you, I would say
Now I have the opportunity, and I have nothing
My words would fall on deaf ears; you’re like a castle without a king
A castle because for years I pictured you as the iconic answer to it all
But I got older, and wiser, and thus the more I saw

Look, I’m sorry. I-

I know you are, but it really just doesn’t matter, you see?
This moment’s finally here, but I just want you to leave
Thought I needed this closure for years, all this time
Now I see your face, and turns out, I don’t mind
All I went through, you couldn’t comprehend
But I overcame it, am happy now, and will always fight to the end

Yeah, you didn’t have to cut me off
But you did, and now your kid’s all grown up
You could have stayed around, you know
But you didn’t, and I was forced to become tough

...

Speechless? Guess I’m not surprised, not really
Oddly, you coming to make things better has just pissed me off more
I’ll probably feel a little bad about this tonight before I go to sleep
But the nightmares will come, and I’ll awaken, my heart sore

I’ll picture that pitiful, sorry face of yours that you wear now
And smile, knowing I made the right decision in brushing you off
Maybe you’re truly sorry, but truth is, you’re a little late
And now, the time’s come; it’s your turn to be cut off

Don’t wait around for me. I won’t be here.

[Maryam23]

Nice post.

[Norwind1986]

At 12/19/13 04:11 AM, Maryam23 wrote: Nice post.

Hey, thank you!