At 5/12/12 11:26 PM, MatrixGravity wrote:
Well what can I honestly say? I've grown up with women constantly ignoring me and disregarding my mere existence. That's why I am not very fond of women in general. I have made many attempts at putting myself out there in the world and all my efforts always seem to go to waste. No matter how much time I invest on enhancing my physical appearance or refining my personality, none of that seems to matter. I don't really have many options left in my life currently. You seem fortunate enough to have found your significant other, and that's great to hear. Sadly not many people are lucky enough to find themselves with somebody they can call their own. Sure, maybe I have my own personal flaws but I don't think even perfection will be enough for me to find somebody that I can genuinely relate too and see eye to eye with.
Now you have a teaspoon of relation to how I feel. Instead of your concerns of the world as a whole, you have concerns for the attitudes of a general female character - based off of your own introspection - at the least. They do not see what you cherish inside you. You can become your own God, but it means nothing in the real world. It like playing a MMORPG. Nobody cares about you being level 99 in all stats. They are too worried about their own lives. That is your problem. You can not let things go, just like I could not let ignorance and denial go. Sometimes, all you can do is throw in the tower, retract your passionate wings, and soak in your own lake of fervid, wordly existence. You can be a strong man on the inside, a man of great will and power, but you must realise that you are conflicting with two entirely irrelevlant realities that only co-exist. Your reality inside you, your personal values and experiences are only a choice to be accepted by others - while most of the time - being chosen to be ignored, because people always expect more rather than less in this greedy, misinformed reality of ours.
Stay strong, is all I can say my friend. Stand for who you are, and one day, a girl will see you stand out from the crowd. If you lie down and crawl from frustration, that moment you may meet, may not be met, because the girl won't be able to see you crawling underneath the crowd you let stomp all over you.