Like the title states, I have lost hope and confidence in my ability as a music producer. I just can't come up with ideas anymore, so most of my current creations sound like they are due to randomness. I scratch and scratch my hair, pull it out... yes, I try that hard - still I can't come up with any basslines or melodies on my midi keyboard. I give up mostly before FINALLY pulling something out, which amazes me sometimes. Where did it come from, really?
Another thing is that my music nowadays doesn't attract that many people. I get so few votes and reviews compared to yesterday (I mean 6 years ago) How could this be? My theory of this point is that... I don't put any love into it. Love could be compared with water. Water is the source of life, and like you know, if you water plants, they grow! No water... and they die. I suppose my music sounds dead nowadays. I don't take care of my labors (WIP music) What do you say?
Also keep in mind that in the last 4 years, my will to listen to music has been averaging close to zero. I OCCASIONALLY listen to di.fm but that is like 2 hours a month, maybe not even that. Besides that I have been feeling really apathetic since 2010, and am currently unemployed and have been since I dropped out of school which was when I was 17 years old. So could my apathy and music outdated brain be the other two causes of this state?