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Sorry for the inactivity. I found someone I fell in love then I lost her. I had to spend as much time as posable. Anyway I have a new poem for you people.

Chosen One

I see all that I do as wrong
I constantly piss people off
I see my falts ant try to fix them
I try so hard to make things right
But they wont listen to a word I say
Owr group is gone their friendship is dead
One is always gone abd the other is never happy
I'm inbetween wanting life and death
I'm still trying to make things right
I can't choos one over the other
If I need a reason to be friends then it wont work
The world is against me lifes too hard
I fear the pain or loss and lonliness
I love her personality and self being
I respect his stringth and brotherhoud
I'm confused with wether to start or end
I hate this hatred for all thoughs around me
I'm happy that I can still be their friend
I'm being torn apart by current events
I'm lost in a seaof emtynesand sorrow
I hert insideits so unbearable
How can I save myself from this pain
I'd be better off trying to save the world
I'm stuck in the past and can't go on
I need help in being who I am
I'm the chosen one who will save the world

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At 4/5/06 12:25 PM, Andersson wrote: It all worked out. Thank you anyways for always taking time for it. =)

Heh, I've done more stupid shit after I made that post. First, I thought there was a cat that got into the back garden. I rushed to get out of the house and find the cat, but didn't see any cat. I had the door WIDE OPEN and my budgie was out of his cage. Lucky he didn't escape from the house. Second, when I was at the Youth club playing on Halo 2 with my friend, I accidently drank a bit of his can of coke and did not realise it was his. I forgot that I finished drinking my can of coke. Good thing he didn't go mad at me. Good thing my friend accepted it as an accident.

Finally, I was trying to get headphones from the computer and accidently knocked a cup of water (there was only a little amount of water) and my sister went psycho! I cleaned the keyboard, but seriously, that was just a fucking accident. :| Oh well.

Stupid, but lucky, I guess. Hopefully I don't cause any more stupid shit like that for a while.

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At 4/6/06 03:37 AM, DarknessRules wrote: Sorry for the inactivity. I found someone I fell in love then I lost her. I had to spend as much time as posable. Anyway I have a new poem for you people.

Good to see you back, and a nice poem.

I'm sorry to hear about your girlfriend though.

At 4/6/06 11:27 AM, Fucking_Idiot wrote: Lucky he didn't escape from the house.

That really was good. It'd be a fucking shame if he escaped to the sky (Hehe).

Good thing my friend accepted it as an accident.

Haha, not a big deal.

Finally, I was trying to get headphones from the computer and accidently knocked a cup of water (there was only a little amount of water) and my sister went psycho! I cleaned the keyboard, but seriously, that was just a fucking accident. :| Oh well.

Hmmm. So you're sister... is she older than you? ;-)

Stupid, but lucky, I guess. Hopefully I don't cause any more stupid shit like that for a while.

Hehe, a bit lucky, while you're overrating what's stupidity and what's just some stuff that happens. =)

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At 4/6/06 03:37 AM, DarknessRules wrote: Sorry for the inactivity. I found someone I fell in love then I lost her. I had to spend as much time as posable. Anyway I have a new poem for you people.

Sorry for the love then lost, like most of us she was probably not good for you if she wasnt into you and you will learn from it, so good luck in the game of life...

At 4/5/06 10:02 AM, Fucking_Idiot wrote: I didn't, and it's blammed! :( If anyone can get the .swf URL, that would be great.

Sorry guess i should have saved, ill look on my computer tonight and if its availle ill post it on my site so you can check it out, ill let you know...

At 4/5/06 03:59 AM, Andersson wrote:

Comments please.

Cool, have not seen anything from you in abit so nice to see this, and decent work as always MR Andersson :)

~X~

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At 4/6/06 04:48 PM, Andersson wrote: That really was good. It'd be a fucking shame if he escaped to the sky (Hehe).

I know, but he ain't going to the Sky. Besides, I don't think he'd fly away if he went outside. He might just sit on either me or my dad, but still, better not take the risk.

Haha, not a big deal.

Yeah, but it was still stupid.

Hmmm. So you're sister... is she older than you? ;-)

She's 17.

Hehe, a bit lucky, while you're overrating what's stupidity and what's just some stuff that happens. =)

I don't think I'm overrating anything about stupidity. Anything I just accidently do, I think I'll call it stupidity.

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At 4/6/06 08:05 PM, XwaynecoltX wrote: Cool, have not seen anything from you in abit so nice to see this, and decent work as always MR Andersson :)

Hehe, thank you. I'll post a preview on the story sometime so you'll get a grasp on what kind of story it is.

I know for sure that it'll be my best work so far if I'd just put time into it.

At 4/7/06 04:32 AM, Fucking_Idiot wrote: Besides, I don't think he'd fly away if he went outside. He might just sit on either me or my dad, but still, better not take the risk.

Hehe, yeah. I guess it'd be a shame if he'd fly away just because you wanted to test how loyal he is. XD

Yeah, but it was still stupid.

By "Not a big deal", I mean that it isn't stupid. :-)

She's 17.

That's getting creepy. But still. Pics? >=)

I don't think I'm overrating anything about stupidity. Anything I just accidently do, I think I'll call it stupidity.

Ah, okay.

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yeah, sadly for all of you, i have no emo bitch story about love (for once)

i fell completely and utterly and madly in love in january and am still extremely happy. she loves me back just as much. ^_^

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At 4/7/06 10:45 AM, Andersson wrote: Hehe, yeah. I guess it'd be a shame if he'd fly away just because you wanted to test how loyal he is. XD

And that's why I'll always make sure he's in the house, unless he's outside INSIDE his cage. :P Now that the weather is turning a lot better, I guess on some days, my budgie can go outside....IN HIS CAGE!

That's getting creepy. But still. Pics? >=)

HAHAHAHAHA, no.

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At 4/8/06 04:43 AM, Fucking_Idiot wrote: Now that the weather is turning a lot better, I guess on some days, my budgie can go outside....IN HIS CAGE!

You like to keep prisoners, do you? Just give them a taste of freedom, to then lock them back in. =)

HAHAHAHAHA, no.

:-(

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At 4/8/06 02:39 AM, MALforPresident wrote: yeah, sadly for all of you, i have no emo bitch story about love (for once)

REally...?

i fell completely and utterly and madly in love in january and am still extremely happy. she loves me back just as much. ^_^

Ha thats cool, how many babies she gonna make for you?? haha just kidding mal glad things are going good, keep us uotp date...

~X~

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At 4/8/06 06:36 AM, Andersson wrote: You like to keep prisoners, do you? Just give them a taste of freedom, to then lock them back in. =)

Don't worry. He can still get freedom inside the house. :P

-(

It's just my sister doesn't like pictures of herself, so I'll respect that and not show anyone pictures of her. OK? She thinks she's ugly. That's why, but she isn't.

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Unfortunatly she moved to calefonia. Atleast I have her number and a cell phone. Shes always busy though. Getting stoned and drunk. Well atleast she's happy there. I'll write another poem soon. My poems are really good when I'm depressed. I did write one but I lost it. Atleast I knew where the one I posted here was.When she moved she took my luck with her. Life really sucks now. Atleast I still have my friends on the net.

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At 4/9/06 03:42 AM, DarknessRules wrote: Unfortunatly she moved to calefonia. Atleast I have her number and a cell phone.

Ha hook me up then ill go visit her and give her a loveing of her life haha, no just kidding i wouldnt, she is probably far too young for me...

Ya net friends are ok...

~X~

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At 4/9/06 03:34 AM, Bahamut- wrote: Don't worry. He can still get freedom inside the house. :P

Haha. Okay. It'd be fun to see him rock to "The Prisoner" though. =)

It's just my sister doesn't like pictures of herself, so I'll respect that and not show anyone pictures of her. OK? She thinks she's ugly. That's why, but she isn't.

Hahaha, I'm just kidding with you. XP

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is anyone familiar with drake and josh? Those guys are so random, its so funny.

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At 4/9/06 05:56 AM, Dumbass_Dude wrote: is anyone familiar with drake and josh? Those guys are so random, its so funny.

Yeah, I am. I think there are hundreds of series better than them and most episodes are re-runs.

I've seen a couple of good jokes in the serie, although the main reason to why I've watched any of it is that I've been really bored or the show has just happened to be on TV.

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I have a treat for you guys. A new poem. Another good one. Depression is my insperation for writing these.

Eternal Pain

I feel so lost without her
She brought light to the darkness
She brought joy to my depression
She is everything I ever dreamed of
My wounds were healed
My pain was gone
I was so happy to spend time with her
But the darkness has returned
The deppression has resurffaced
My wounds have reopend
My pain has come back
Its too much too fast too soon
I can't stand this pain again
I lose everyone I meet
I lose everything I gain
Friendship has ended and so must I
I want nothing more or less then to die
My pain is eternal my life is just as long
I'm stuck in the past the futer is nonexistant
I wish she was here with me forever
My life is over before it truely begins
She is all I think about
I wish I was someone else tonight
sometimes I wish I was never born at all
I don't want to fall in love ever again
It's just too painful to lose people I love
This pain is so unbearable
This is my eternal pain

After writing this I feel alittle better but this really and compleatly sucks. It's good to have friends such as you guys. And X I think she is alittle young for you. Shes almost too young for me. It's nise being able to talk to you guys. Got any advice you could put in the form of a poem or just give me. This is my last resort. Pleas listen to my desprit cry for help.

HELP!!!

It hurts my heart to do funny shit like this. lol

I made myself feel bad again. Well I tryed to make myself feel better but it didn't work. Maybe I should resort to drugs.

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Comments please.

-=Electric Silence=-

When I first didn't interact
What was I watching?

I lived a different life
Which didn't lay waste
A could electric taste
Have now filled my brain

Digits rules my world
Cursorial I lay victim
To a frail society
So then why am I darnel to abide?

Inside my little space I curvet
But does no affect

This world has limbed my legs
So abnormal yet legit

Now where is the fire?

All can be replaced
And freedmen is the proof
Because when was engines first invented?

Noises to hold down
The masses in each town
The world is no more runned
By a leader we all shun

Our opinion is a line to be read
And no longer to be changed with lead
But press your little tool
And just edit the fool

Now, why's that?

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Darkness

Hey man hope your doing ok, feel free to e-mail if ya wanna talk, i have some good stories to tell you in relation to your recent loss

xwaynecoltx@yahoo.com

Anyways how is everyone i been away working on some personal issues, but things are getting better...

~X~

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Hey all, it's been awhile. You probably don't remember me anyways. I've been writing alot in my absence from NG. I'll show you some.

A Wind Chime Hanging

I saw a wind chime hanging.
Bright Brass glinting in the cool winter sun.

It snowed earlier, leaving the chime
Clothed in white, sparkling.
The steady breeze keeping in time
The metallic clattering.

So simply swayed, suspended.
Not of its own will I imagine.
Yet with an air of independence,
As if just emboldened.

Ah! Idly played instrument,
Know that I empathize.
I too have waited patient,
Passing away this life.

How similar we are, so
Solitary.
Yes indeed, very, and nary
A passing word
May make mark
So inattentively heard.

And yet aren’t we subject,
Unable to object?
How they rule our hearts!
Do I not don appeasing opinions?
And you, moved at the Master’s whim?
The fact is, we capitulate.
There is no need for me to enumerate
Examples.

You, my friend, resound magnificently
Yet swing soulless.
My melody a wretched cacophony,
And the “divine” in me corrupt, invirtuous.

Be we are the same.

Actually, no.
Solace was my excuse
But that’s not true.

I’m alone on my account,
You on another’s.

Sweet Release

Death was sweet release,
Respite, solace.

At last, without you.

Most would mourn, lament.
A fitting exercise for the
Foolish and Discontent.

Yet I rejoice, jubilation!
Indeed a final salvation,
Though most may
Deem perdition.

In truth, it’s better here.
Fear? Well, I get by.
An obligatory price
For such freedom
Would suffice to stifle
The most earnest.

Yet I gladly paid,
Preferring to be laid
Amongst the steadfast stones
And restless soil.

‘Parting is such sweet sorrow’,
Clearly one knows not of true loneliness,
God’s most debilitating, aggravating.
A result of childish infatuating of
Some object, some person.

In the company of the flies or doves,
Whichever prefer me,
Will I be truly content.

I once thought you heaven sent.
Now, quite the literal reverse.

In the Subway

I saw a man dying today.
A grimy face pressed
Against the gray floor.
I stopped for one moment to rest,
And watched.

The mass swirled around me,
Pulsing and moving in time
To his short, weak breathes.

I heard the rolling thunder of a car.
I had to keep moving, it wasn’t far off now.

An officer knelt by this man,
His only form of help a glove-clad hand
Placed apathetically on the back,
Which heaved up and down,
Slower and slower, fading.

The train was louder now.
A crescendo of tempestuous rumbling.
People all around fumbling
To avoid this dying hero,
Then continuing on.

I don’t think they can feel..

One man looked.
The only unoccupied man I suppose.
His arms were folded, firmly,
And he gazed so sternly.
What was it that intrigued this stranger so?

Maybe the ineffective officer,
Hardly trying in vain.

Probably not.

I had never seen a man die before.
As I saw his last heavy heave, and life welk,
The Train roared in, sparks shots from underneath.

All those people finally stopped their pulsing,
And commenced their boarding.

The officer stood up, shook his head, and made a call.
The strange man moved to a bench and sat.
I missed the train.

I'd appreciate some comments. I'm happy to review anything anyone else has.

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yo i am joining your crew cos i am always up late

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At 4/20/06 02:15 AM, TheJordan0 wrote: yo i am joining your crew cos i am always up late

haha well welcome, and enjoy your stay, feel free to wrote a few poems or even storsies if you like, its another thing we do here...

At 4/19/06 10:13 PM, deathtuna wrote: Hey all, it's been awhile. You probably don't remember me anyways. I've been writing alot in my absence from NG. I'll show you some.

A Wind Chime Hanging

Welcome oldtimer, and nice work there you have contributed, i remember your awsome stuff from back in the day anyways welcome once again...

~X~

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Thanks for the welcome back X. Heh I'm an oldtimer now. I didn't realize how long I've been coming to this site off and on, about 2 1/2 years. If only I had deposited every day...

C&C seems slower than it was back in the old days, but maybe its just that all the threads I used to post in have died.

Anywhoo, I'll probably have something to post in here for everyone's enjoyment soon enough. I've started a few stories, none finished though. Who knows.

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At 4/23/06 08:38 PM, deathtuna wrote: Thanks for the welcome back X. Heh I'm an oldtimer now. I didn't realize how long I've been coming to this site off and on, about 2 1/2 years. If only I had deposited every day...

Yeah your one of the old but greats hehe...

C&C seems slower than it was back in the old days, but maybe its just that all the threads I used to post in have died.

Yeah its not that interesting, i stick more in reviewing and portal these days...

Anywhoo, I'll probably have something to post in here for everyone's enjoyment soon enough. I've started a few stories, none finished though. Who knows.

Sounds good cant wait...

~X~

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fucking emo bitches. writing poems and complaining about love...fuck!

so remember, its down the street, not across the road. k? k.

i mean, <3 LNL emofest!

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At 4/23/06 10:58 PM, MALforPresident wrote: fucking emo bitches. writing poems and complaining about love...fuck!

haha what are you talking about son :)

so remember, its down the street, not across the road. k? k.

I supose...

i mean, <3 LNL emofest!

Ofcourse heh, anyways what ya been upto...??

~X~

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Hey can I join in?

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At 4/23/06 11:14 PM, hooglyboogly wrote: Hey can I join in?

Sure you can, we do a number of things here which are writing poems and stories, and other will rate them, or tell us whyyou are up late and so on, its a great lounge to have some fun make a few friends and just stuff like that so welcome to the club...

~X~

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At 4/23/06 10:58 PM, MALforPresident wrote: fucking emo bitches. writing poems and complaining about love...fuck!

so remember, its down the street, not across the road. k? k.

i mean, <3 LNL emofest!

Whoa broheim, watch where you throw the 'E' word ok? ;) I'm a ska fan myself.

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At 4/24/06 08:45 PM, deathtuna wrote: Whoa broheim, watch where you throw the 'E' word ok? ;) I'm a ska fan myself.

Emobitch...