I was skull fucked!

[PeiMei]

I'm not getting any input fast enough so I'm copying my news post to general.

"I smoked some marijane that might of been laced. I've had some fucked up and unexplainable things happen inside my head before, but I believe this takes the cake.

Sitting in a car in the passenger seat I had this consistent and completely overpowering feeling that the person sitting behind me was robbing me and had my life in his hands. Like I was being backstabbed, held in a full nelson, had a gun shoved in my face and one up my ass as someone goes through everything I've ever had or held dear. Terribly wronged. Only none of this was actuelly happening. I wasn't aware of my surroundings during this hell. The sensations were so strong and un-enjoyable that at one point I said to myself that I didn't want to exist anymore.

As a sunlit dot travelled on my head through the sunroof to the sprout of my hair, I felt asthough it was some sort of tool, poking at my brain. Somehow robbing me and completely violating me. Like a greater power was fucking with my mind and there was nothing I could do about it. I felt like my teeth were all being drilled at once.

I later told myself that I should beat my chest, hard, and maybe roar in anger and pride to strenghten myself, anchor and secure my position on this earth and in this reality. I'm damaged, I believe.

I thought something must of happened. This horrible feeling must come from somewhere. Hopefully nothing has changed and I can go back to living life in first person where I'm in complete control of the here and now and can make every second count. I want to change my life. I don't want to do drugs ever again, but I know I'm stupid enough to do them again because I've already had something similar happen to me."

Am I the only broken child?

[Falonefal]

Drugs, are BAD, MOTHERFUCKINGMKAY?

[HardcoreClimax]

Drinking has never made me feel that way.

Thank God
AMIRIGHT?

...no?

oh...ok...

[PeiMei]

At 11/30/10 12:51 AM, HardcoreClimax wrote: Drinking has never made me feel that way.

You are right actuelly. Better to drown your sorrow than lose your mind.

Kill your liver before frying your brain.

[HardcoreClimax]

At 11/30/10 12:57 AM, PeiMei wrote:

At 11/30/10 12:51 AM, HardcoreClimax wrote: Drinking has never made me feel that way.

You are right actuelly. Better to drown your sorrow than lose your mind.

Kill your liver before frying your brain.

I've already had my rebellious "Fuck You" stoner phase.
Now I quit my complaining and deal with it.
But not without my trusty booze.

I should write a fucking Haiku

[Falonefal]

At 11/30/10 12:57 AM, PeiMei wrote:

At 11/30/10 12:51 AM, HardcoreClimax wrote: Drinking has never made me feel that way.

You are right actuelly. Better to drown your sorrow than lose your mind.

Kill your liver before frying your brain.

Oh cry me a river, then drown your sorrow in it :D

Just popped into mind :D

[argile]

It really shouldn't be all that bad if you had taken all of those things in responsibility but I guess you must have had a traumatizing experiencing which is why you used some pretty interesting analogies to describe how you were feeling.

[Gunner-D]

you were exposed to hallucinagenics. Congradulations!

[Dr4GonFLy]

At 11/30/10 12:57 AM, PeiMei wrote:

At 11/30/10 12:51 AM, HardcoreClimax wrote: Drinking has never made me feel that way.

You are right actuelly. Better to drown your sorrow than lose your mind.

Kill your liver before frying your brain.

Yes, thank god, drinking doesn't make you dumb..

[hitman1993]

Mmmkay?

[lolomfgisuck]

It's called a "Panic Attack".

I get them all the time.

[yonokowhat]

Man, am I the only one whos just happy with a sandwhich?

[KittehAnims]

Lol, you take drugs.

That means you deserve whatever happens.

[Tycrane]

Lesson learned: don't smoke marijuana, take L.S.D's instead.

[High-Dark]

You have Shitloads of Bad luck

[MonkeyShooter]

At 11/30/10 12:45 AM, PeiMei wrote:

"I smoked some marijane that might of been laced.

It was definitely laced. Weed doesn't do that shit. Try to only buy from people you know and trust... pretty much the only advice anyone can give you. That or stop smoking if it was such a horrible experience.

Also, I'm no doctor but weed can supposedly trigger schizophrenia if it's in your genes or something of that sort, but it's very rare. I don't know if schizophrenia can come in outbursts like that or not but it's worth getting checked out if it happens again.

[XenonMonkey]

Meaning you were fucked in the eye?

Jesus Christ, that's a fucking horrible thought.

[Crayzorder]

I had similar things happen, and after the 4th time I decided to stop.
I used to smoke regularly, took a long hiatus, than after I returned it was killer. Sometimes it was ok, others time it was hell. My brain can't adapt to THC anymore.

Give up the weed, unless you want it to happen again. The most you can do is take a hit or two to get buzzed, than its not bad. If you get "high" the feeling will return, because in the back of your mind that same feeling is trembling, and when smoking it will come out again.

[Ragnarokia]

So you didn't get the good kind of skull fuck then?
Pity, it feels good.

[Wyatt2012]

Jesus Christ.

[Lagerkapo]

Long story short; Make sure you buy drugs from reliable sources.

Duh.

[Slint]

Expresswayyyyyyy... to your skull.

[Caturman]

Did you solve a puzzle box before this? Cocaine is one hell of a drug. (Enjoy your laced weed)

[lolomfgisuck]

At 11/30/10 04:51 PM, MonkeyShooter wrote: It was definitely laced. Weed doesn't do that shit.

It's a possibility it was laced... but really, it sounds like a panic attack to me. A feeling of unavoidable dread with no clear reason for existing. Your heart beats faster, you take faster shorter breaths and begin to hyperventilate... your limbs get a numb feeling and you get lightheaded. Your positive something terrible is about to happen any second but you don't know what, and you you don't know why.

Weed can make you paranoid... not permenatnly, but it is a side effect. If you already have an issue with anxiety, smoking too much weed in one sitting could easily trigger the panic attack. The good news, none of this will hurt or kill you. Panic Attacks are actually natural... it's just not suppose to happen without a reason. If a bear was chasing you, you would want a panic attack to occure. The effects of it actually make you react quicker with less thought and allow you to run/fight faster, stronger, and longer then you normally would.

But if you're just sitting still and one kicks in, it's scary as fuck. You don't want your heart to beat fast when your sitting on the couch. But you would like the increased blood-flow while running from an attacking bear. it's cool...

I could be wrong about all of this (I'm no doctor), but I've had it happen to me. I would suggest not smoking so much... (or at all). I find one or two hits off the pipe to be enough. I like to get "high", not "stoned". If I get high, it's cool. If I get stoned, I freak out.

[Dogmeat]

You greened out, no big deal, it happens to the best of us.

[k6ka]

Don't take drugs, kids. You will live to regret taking drugs if you start. Also, it's illegal. You want to spend some time in jail?

[Garage]

Was this a metaphor for something?

I couldn't get a picture of any coherent thought you were trying to express.

[Malachy]

Blog posts belong in your blog for a reason, dude.