Hey, new story, just hoped if I could get some reviews about it and what I can fix or be careful of in the future.
By the way, back story, someone told me to write about a love story between a gay male and a lesbian female.
Soul-Mates Never Die.
Back in the early 1990s, while gay rights were being pushed, there were still discrimination. You couldn't put your finger on it but you could taste it in the air, the tip of your tongue reacted in such a subtle sour way that most people never noticed it, but I did. Maybe it was because I was part of the butt of it. "I am Charlie McThene and I am gay" I muttered to myself, small bits of air escaping through my lips as though to kiss and then whisper to the winds my confession, just as though I'm at an AA meeting; or worse: One of those Christian camps where they "convert" the homosexual. A small shot of cold ice shot up my spine as I remembered this. I knew about Christian conversion too well since it was one of the things my parents pleaded with me during the month after I told my mother and father about my feelings towards sexes after a Sunday roast. This was before I moved out in about '82. There's only so much "you're confused" and "let me help fix you" you can take before you snap, one "fuck off" gets taken too personal and you're kicked out with some cuts and bruises to rest uneasy on.
Luckily, I had someone to stay with. I grew up with a girl since year 5 called Josephine, or Jo as she preferred to be called. Josephine was a lesbian, a lipstick type who could fit in with the rest of the girls easily. Meanwhile, I was a gay who could fit in with the rest of the boys very easily. We both had our little quirks which were there if you looked hard enough. Things like how I'd sometimes hum The Carpenters while Jo usually didn't wear as much make-up as her friends. She came out to me when I was 14 and I told her I was gay about six months after, probably a month before I truly knew myself after an accidental fling with the opposite sex. I had gone to her place with tears still streaming from my eyes after the hour walk with only the very few things I could haul in a bag that while did not belong to me, my father considered a spare so he let me have it just so he could see me and everything that symbolised me gone. Almost like instinct, as she saw me on the door step with my bag, she hugged me and whispered in my ear "I'm sorry things with your parents worked out like this". I knew she knew what I had been through. She invited me in where I spent about an hour and a half cuddling her, crying my eyes out.
She was living with her girlfriend, Frances, who didn't mind me staying as long I pulled my own weight. I took the bus to the local shop I worked at or at the local college I studied computers at, paid for the bus home and paid for my own meals. When I had money to burn, I even took Jo and Fran out to a meal and a few drinks. I even cleaned around the house occasionally since Fran was always busy out and Jo was one of those people who laughed at the idea of doing house duties unless tricked into doing it. I had honestly lost count the amount of times I told her that she promised she would dust around the house when she was drunk, despite her saying nothing of the sort; usually the polar opposite "No...NO! Thi-...This time I will not promise to do fackin' house work...Nope! I'm not doing that shit ever!". I chuckled to myself as I remembered how wasted she usually got. Never enough to let other people know she was a lesbian, but just enough to do all sorts of insane things. Well, at least until we got home, which then Fran and Jo were holding each other, tonguing each other. I would leave them to their business and go to my room since they didn't always do all of it in the privacy of their own bedroom...
Anyway, we all grew up together. Jo stayed with Fran but remained distanced. Jo left her job as a check-out clerk after she was taken to the side and asked to resign quietly. This was because Jo had accidentally told a co-worker she was close friends with that she had a girlfriend after Fran sent her flowers at work on St Valentines Day. The manager advised her that her homosexuality would only lead to conflicts between her and everyone else because it's making other people feel uncomfortable. Jo took the offer up. While Fran was busy at work at a fashion magazine trying to piece together a story, I had to hold Jo and comfort her as she told me she wished she wasn't gay. That it was just a out-right curse. I was telling that it was fine and gay rights groups are making a difference. Jo was screeching between sobs of tears that it wouldn't ever change and even when she finally dies, there'll still be homophobia. She could be 90 and homophobia would exist. I hushed her down and we decided we'd get drunk together. I was now working at a computer business that had only just started and I had a late shift (1pm to 6pm) the next day. We got absolutely hammered and came back late at midnight. Fran was still not home so we decided to stay up for an hour or two to wait for her. After our banter about the current TV show we were watching, I mumbled"so, if you were straight, do you know who you'd date?". She laughed in her "I'm so fucking wasted!" way before looking at me and smiling gently "I would of defiantly made you my husband by now if you weren't gay". I giggled, almost bursting into full out laughter. "...What?" a smile creeped up her face. I couldn't think of a response. It may have been the alcohol or it could be something else but I couldn't think of a good response. Finally, all I could say was "if I wasn't so gay and you weren't so, I doubt we'd be absolutely drunk and sitting on the sofa".
We looked at each other, her eyes were piercing yet drooping from the alcohol and tiredness. They were a dark green colour. Her long brown hair was in a mess with strands reaching out as though slightly charged with static electricity. Her face was in a plain expression with a twinge of...Something. Before I knew it, her lips were gently planted on mine. I felt shocked, but yet something in me didn't mind it. I wanted her as much as I could tell she wanted me, but yet something held me back. If I was staring at a guy, I would of pounced on him long ago, but this wasn't. This was a girl, this was my best friend since childhood. She shared her dolls and I shared my cars and trucks. I thought I knew love with the guys I had dated, but this was different, this transcended anything physical and touched something spiritual. I wanted to show her my love, but I couldn't bring myself to. I could see she wanted to do so as well, but we hated each other's body. After looking at each other for a long while I eventually told her, now completely sober "look, let's pretend this never happened and go to bed". She paused, and then said "okay" in a completely monotone emotionless voice that I had never heard before. It was like telling someone who had just had a mental breakdown and was now in a mental hospital "okay, it's time for breakfast...You coming for breakfast?" while you were trying to remember which meds to give her.
This too will pass.
Memento mori