I am a male anorexic

[yesIamanalt]

I am a regular of this forum, and so I know that this is probably the absolute worst place to post this, but talking to cock jokes is better than nothing I suppose. A few months ago I was about six feet, weighed about 155 lbs, and I was a great runner on our track team. Luckily I didn't go as far as some before seeking help, but today I am about 110 pounds. I first opened up to my parents two days ago. I have practically no muscle or fat left. I was never bullemic, but I had something similar. I would chew food to taste it and then spit it back out and wash out any that might have dissolved in my saliva by rinsing my mouth with water.

It started out as nothing too serious, but my weight loss measures got more and more extreme. Just simply not eating seconds at dinner turned into calorie counts. 1500 at first, by last week it was 50 calories a day. It sucks, you feel tired 24/7 (surprisingly you don't feel hungry though), you get constipated 24/7, luckily I was smart enough to take a multivitamin while starving, but before I started doing that I got skin rashes, and god knows how many other symptoms.

But now that I asked for help, I'm not sure what to do. Eating scares me. The first day I told my mom I came to her and asked to talk to her in private and told her that I wanted her to watch me eat a bagel, and make sure I swallowed it because it has more calories in it than I had all last week. However, my body forgot how to digest real calories. When I went to work later that day I had the worst stomach ache of my life that lasted for hours on end. I'm not sure how I can recover from this.

I asked my parents to set me up with some help, and there is a facility nearby but their LEAST intensive program is an 11 hour per day thing. I don't have that kind of fucking time; I have a job. We are trying to find just a therapist and nutritionist I can have meetings with every day without doing a whole elaborate facility, and the facility gave us some names, but they haven't returned our calls. I hate what I'm putting my parents through, but they are being helpful and supportive.

I have no clue why I am talking about his here, but it helps to have something to talk to without any fear of losing any kind of reputation I built up. When I told my mom the first thing I said is that it never leaves us, that she mentions it to no one, not family friends etc. without my permission.

[Obvious-M]

I can suck my stomach in and fit my hand under my ribs.

[fwe]

Stop being scared of food, you dumb faggot

[sweet21]

At 7/29/10 11:49 PM, fwe wrote: Stop being scared of food, you dumb faggot

this, nobody cares if your fat, just be comfortable with yourself.

[Struggle]

what made you do it? did you think you were fat or was there something else? i don't think 155 for a 6ft tall guy is heavy at all, i'm about 150 and i'm 5'10.....
shit.

[XanadeadUzumaki]

find something you like to eat thats not celery or lettuce and eat a shitload of it

[Graduation]

At 7/29/10 11:49 PM, fwe wrote: Stop being scared of food, you dumb faggot

I agree.
OP: Just eat a fucking cheese burger or something you fucking imbecile.

[yesIamanalt]

At 7/29/10 11:52 PM, Struggle wrote: what made you do it? did you think you were fat or was there something else? i don't think 155 for a 6ft tall guy is heavy at all, i'm about 150 and i'm 5'10.....
shit.

There was actually a time when I was 220. I lost weight then, but in a healthy way. I cut down on portions, exercised, ate healthier food, and did so in a good way. I then held a healthy weight for about a year, and then this anorexia shit started.

At 7/29/10 11:52 PM, JohnnyDamon wrote:

At 7/29/10 11:49 PM, fwe wrote: Stop being scared of food, you dumb faggot

I agree.
OP: Just eat a fucking cheese burger or something you fucking imbecile.

It's not that simple. My digestive system can't handle it. if I ate a cheeseburger I would be writing in stomach pain all day.

At 7/29/10 11:52 PM, WaffleVoyager wrote: Sorry to hear that. Your condition does baffle me though, I love food and because of that I used to be a fat ass.

Can you describe the fear?

Just the idea of weight gain scares me pretty much.

What your thoughts are when you attempt to eat something etc?

After counting calories for a while my first thought when seeing any food (even a discarded wrapper on the side of the street) would be about the nutritional facts.

[Entrax]

At 7/29/10 11:45 PM, yesIamanalt wrote: I am a regular of this forum

I was about to say that you only had one post, and then I read your name. I hope you overcome your problem.

[Bit]

You should go see a doctor. We can't really help you.

[MonkeyV]

Okay I don't understand anorexia at all, and clearly neither do most of the people in this thread.

Why exactly did you continue to starve yourself after noticing you were a tad too skinny? Is it like an OCD thing or an addiction, or what?
What's the fear like and what was stopping you from eating?

[Squishy69]

I agree with the last guy(s). Seriously you gotta eat man. Eat some candy bars and cheese, start out small if your body in all honesty can't digest calories. How the h**l does that happen anyway?
And don't give us s**t about not having the time to work with it. People snack at work all the time and you should do the same. If it's still too much for you I say get I.V. treatment until this thing gets resolved. Change begins with you dude. Realize that.

[Luke]

You're like a girl man... Probably gayer than Richard Simmons.

[sweet21]

At 7/29/10 11:59 PM, Stevenscar wrote: You should go see a doctor. We can't really help you.

We could always serve as mental support.

[yesIamanalt]

At 7/30/10 12:00 AM, MonkeyV wrote: Okay I don't understand anorexia at all, and clearly neither do most of the people in this thread.

Why exactly did you continue to starve yourself after noticing you were a tad too skinny? Is it like an OCD thing or an addiction, or what?
What's the fear like and what was stopping you from eating?

I guess when I went from being fat to being healthy I got in the mindset that lower numbers on the scale = good high numbers = bad.

A lot of unrelated shit going down probably got me wanting to solve something that I could control in my life, and one thing is making scale numbers go down.

I got extremely OCD about what foos I ate. Spitting out food is probably the most addicting thing I ever did. It started as just wanting a taste of something sweet without having the calories, but then it turned into turning my kitchen upside down, cooking, and even shoplifting just to have food to spit out.

[34Deadman]

At 7/29/10 11:59 PM, Stevenscar wrote: You should go see a doctor. We can't really help you.

He has a point. Go talk to a doctor about this If you haven't yet. All I can say is try to eat stuff that won't make you sick and don't be afraid of gaining weight. Hope you can get passed this.

[sweet21]

Okay well, it appears you guys are going at this all wrong, since he has starved his body, you can't just eat a-bunch of food just like that, thats binge eating and can cause death.

Plus he should not be eating cheesburgers or candy, fruit, vegetables, juice, meats such as steak and fish, and bread are ideal for recovering anorexics.
Given their nutrient deprivation, they can eat junk food though yes, but it's recomended healthy foods first.

Secondly, Anorexia is defined as a mental disorder, whenever the person looks in the mirror they see a fat guy, simple as that.
Plus, dude, not eating makes you fatter! it's called bloating, go figure.

[Graduation]

At 7/29/10 11:57 PM, yesIamanalt wrote: It's not that simple. My digestive system can't handle it. if I ate a cheeseburger I would be writing in stomach pain all day.

Take it like a man. I ate a bowl of nails for breakfast this morning.
without any milk.

[Struggle]

I'm surprised at the number of assholes in this thread.

Like he chose to be anorexic? That's like making fun of someone for being depressed because their brain has a chemical imbalance.

[mothballs]

You probably got that stomach ache because your body isn't used to taking that many calories at once. Go little by little, and don't be afraid. Anorexia is more serious than you may think.

[Luke]

At 7/30/10 12:27 AM, Struggle wrote: I'm surprised at the number of assholes in this thread.

Like he chose to be anorexic? That's like making fun of someone for being depressed because their brain has a chemical imbalance.

No, he can choose to eat.

[Acid-Paradox]

Someone get this guy to mcdonalds

one big mac , and you will be fat on the next day

[sixflab]

I'm really underweight but it's because my bone structure is very compact. I only have a 25" waist but I don't think it's that big of a deal.

[sweet21]

At 7/30/10 12:32 AM, EpicFail wrote:

At 7/30/10 12:27 AM, Struggle wrote: I'm surprised at the number of assholes in this thread.

Like he chose to be anorexic? That's like making fun of someone for being depressed because their brain has a chemical imbalance.

No, he can choose to eat.

No read my post, i also may have forgotten to mention that in some cases, the body is trained to think food is bad and will activate the gag reflex whenever something other than water is swallowed.

This is an extreme case though....

[Jackdabomb]

At 7/30/10 12:27 AM, Struggle wrote: Like he chose to be anorexic?

You're not born with an addiction
You could classify anorexia as an addiction if you think about it, and with every addiction it starts with a simple choice, they could've backed out earlier but chose not to because they are either getting satisfied with the results (without noticing the detriments) or are too afraid to stop.
If he wants to quit than he has to deal with whatever withdrawal brings.
No pain no gain.

As horrible as this may sound, no remorse should be given to the weak who complain

[Kogey]

At 7/29/10 11:45 PM, yesIamanalt wrote: I am a regular of this forum

Sign-Up: 07/29/10

Posts: 3

[kiljoy96]

I was kind of anorexic last summer. Lost 10 pounds while growing 2 inches.

[mothballs]

At 7/30/10 12:40 AM, link-011 wrote:

At 7/29/10 11:45 PM, yesIamanalt wrote: I am a regular of this forum

Sign-Up: 07/29/10

Posts: 3

Did you even bother reading his username?

[Jackdabomb]

At 7/30/10 12:40 AM, kiljoy96 wrote: Lost 10 pounds while growing 2 inches.

I really don't think that counts

[Kogey]

At 7/30/10 12:41 AM, mothballs wrote:

At 7/30/10 12:40 AM, link-011 wrote:

At 7/29/10 11:45 PM, yesIamanalt wrote: I am a regular of this forum

Sign-Up: 07/29/10

Posts: 3

Did you even bother reading his username?

Nope.