I'm So Depressed

[Kwing]

At this point I know I shouldn't be thinking about it, I know it's just going to get me down, and I know I'm a pessimist. I don't need people griping at me for that.

I can't stop thinking about how everything is an endless cycle. We die, we're reborn, we die again, and no matter how much we remember of any past experience our memories turn to smoke and it boils down to us wandering around in an omniverse forever that we can't change, where everything returns to nothingness and we live lives over and over again with no real purpose. Sometimes we're individuals, sometimes we shed our individuality and merge with someone else, and on the way we inevitably become what we hate and we lose everything that makes us who we are now. We collect experiences, judgments, and preferences, and we end up losing them in eventuality. I'm just wishing that it could end and we could die for real. I wish we could be nothing and everything forever. But eventually we'll get dragged back into the stream and the misery will never end. I wish forever was worth it, but it's really not.

I need some sense of direction, something to get my mind off of it, or some kind of help. And I won't take therapy, medication, or any of that self-improvement bullshit. I want the freedom to think what I think, but I just want to be okay with it. I want to accept it so I can live my life pretending it will eventually end.

[STEM]

Are you a Buddhist? You seem to cling to the idea of rebirth within samsara

[keioss01]

wait... you believe in reincarnation?

dude...

[Impornant]

Go jump in a lake.

[Sekhem]

you should, uh, find someone you can be intimate with (will improve your mood too)

then you can discuss really important things with them and leave it off of newgrounds

just a tip

[wtfyourface]

At 6/8/10 03:40 PM, Kwing wrote: I need some sense of direction, something to get my mind off of it, or some kind of help. And I won't take therapy, medication, or any of that self-improvement bullshit. I want the freedom to think what I think, but I just want to be okay with it. I want to accept it so I can live my life pretending it will eventually end.

I don't know man, but I'm pretty much in the same boat with ya on that. It's a neverending fireworks of frustration in my head.

[JaY11]

So uh, when was it suddenly decided that we are definitely reborn?

[Ragnarokia]

"You are born and you die, the bit inbetween is called living, and that's still to come weowww"

[Armissea]

Some good honest advice I can give would be

Go do something with friends

go buy something awesome

and spend some time doing what you love most

[HeavyTank]

At 6/8/10 03:40 PM, Kwing wrote: At this point I know I shouldn't be thinking about it, I know it's just going to get me down, and I know I'm a pessimist. I don't need people griping at me for that.

Okay, let's see...

I can't stop thinking about how everything is an endless cycle. We die, we're reborn, we die again,

Waaaait a second...um, how exactly can you be so sure?
There's a basic flaw in this argument: if you're endlessly reborn (which means that the same souls are "recycled" endlessly), then how come that the Earth's population has gone from a few thousands to more than 5 billion?Hmmm?

I need some sense of direction, something to get my mind off of it, or some kind of help. And I won't take therapy, medication, or any of that self-improvement bullshit. I want the freedom to think what I think, but I just want to be okay with it. I want to accept it so I can live my life pretending it will eventually end.

Easy.
GET A FUCKING HOBBY.

[Chemich]

At 6/8/10 03:42 PM, Impornant wrote: Go jump in a lake.

First find a bridge about 1,000 meters above a lake, then jump into it.

amateurs...

[tox]

go to the hospital.. you seem to be suffering from bipolar disorder symptoms, you are reaching out to us for guidance but what you need is clinical help, your self right now suffers from clinical depression, and you alone cannot get out of that, hence you need therapy...
the fact that you continue to say "we, us and i" all in one sentence makes me think of that, or you could be bullshitting us and writing this with a borther sister or friend, and lieing outwardly..
but if that is not the case, then you have a chemical imbalance in the brain.. if you talk with this other self of your then you also have a type of schizophrenia... and if all these things are right, then you are a ticking time bomb that will one day cause mass sorrow, or pain to your self..
seek professional help, call 911.. do something but dont let this few moments go to waste...
that is .. if you are not BSing us...

[Heretic-Anchorite]

But there is purpose, you get to experience this world, all the positives along with the negatives.

Think of it this way, if we are the snow, we are doomed to fall from the sky, sit on the ground, and eventually evaporate back into the sky, but what do we get from all of this? the joy of being part of nature, like the notes in a song creating harmony, and when this song ends, the notes may fade, but the majesty of the song, and harmony created won't.

you'll only see the negatives with that negative attitude, so don't attach yourself to the negative, nor the positive, love both, or one will poison the other.

[Heretic-Anchorite]

At 6/8/10 03:42 PM, STEM wrote: Are you a Buddhist? You seem to cling to the idea of rebirth within samsara

If you are a buddist, remember the secret path, there is a way to escape the cycle of birth and rebirth.

I'm gnostic, the two have many similarities.

[STEM]

At 6/8/10 04:27 PM, I-RULE-OVER-ALL wrote: If you are a buddist, remember the secret path, there is a way to escape the cycle of birth and rebirth.

It's the middle way, not the secret path, lols.

[Heretic-Anchorite]

At 6/8/10 04:32 PM, STEM wrote:

At 6/8/10 04:27 PM, I-RULE-OVER-ALL wrote: If you are a buddist, remember the secret path, there is a way to escape the cycle of birth and rebirth.

It's the middle way, not the secret path, lols.

it has many names, in gnosticism one is the secret path, both mean the same thing, enlightenment.

[Snuff]

Hooray!

[Metal-Loving-Medic]

I think what you need is Prozak

Make sure you double the dose the doctor orginally gives you

[ArmouredGRIFFON]

The worst thing you can ever do is feel nothing of this world. You must embrace yourself.

[Devn]

If you are so depressed, don't go on here. We'll make you feel even worse, i promise.

[Platypus]

At 6/8/10 03:49 PM, JaY11 wrote: So uh, when was it suddenly decided that we are definitely reborn?

i love that guy... and why do u even care if u never die? thatd be sick as

[WanderingHero]

Im not sure I can help, since im not completely over it myself, but find a cause you care about, and join up with someone fightign for it. That will at least inject some meaning into your life

[Chronamut]

so what's it like to be soda pressed?

[Kwing]

At 6/8/10 03:58 PM, HeavyTank wrote: Waaaait a second...um, how exactly can you be so sure?
There's a basic flaw in this argument: if you're endlessly reborn (which means that the same souls are "recycled" endlessly), then how come that the Earth's population has gone from a few thousands to more than 5 billion?Hmmm?

The amount of conscious energy manifested on Earth isn't always the same. This thread isn't a philosophy argument, though.

Easy.
GET A FUCKING HOBBY.

I used to rock climb. I tried doing it again and I can't bring myself to enjoy it anymore. Everything has lost purpose to me.

At 6/8/10 04:01 PM, quagmire690 wrote: seek professional help, call 911.. do something but dont let this few moments go to waste...
that is .. if you are not BSing us...

I don't have a chemical imbalance, and I wrote this myself. Also I refuse to take western medicine for the simple fact that it sucks and it's ineffective. Once again, this isn't what the thread is about.

At 6/8/10 05:48 PM, WanderingHero wrote: Im not sure I can help, since im not completely over it myself, but find a cause you care about, and join up with someone fightign for it. That will at least inject some meaning into your life

Whatever change or progress is made will just be pushed back to where it was before. I'm not fighting an endless battle.

At 6/8/10 04:23 PM, I-RULE-OVER-ALL wrote: But there is purpose, you get to experience this world, all the positives along with the negatives.

Think of it this way, if we are the snow, we are doomed to fall from the sky, sit on the ground, and eventually evaporate back into the sky, but what do we get from all of this? the joy of being part of nature, like the notes in a song creating harmony, and when this song ends, the notes may fade, but the majesty of the song, and harmony created won't.

you'll only see the negatives with that negative attitude, so don't attach yourself to the negative, nor the positive, love both, or one will poison the other.

Thank you, but I'm unable to appreciate anything. All I see are faults and I just bubble up with anger. I don't need anybody to tell me to change my attitude because I'm not in control of my emotions, and anybody that says otherwise is full of shit. For instance, if I could control my emotions I would never feel a day of guilt in my life.

At 6/8/10 04:27 PM, I-RULE-OVER-ALL wrote: If you are a buddist, remember the secret path, there is a way to escape the cycle of birth and rebirth.

I'm not Buddhist. I'm not atheist but I'm not exactly religious either, as religion is supposed to give people a sense of direction. From what I can tell there is no direction to go in because you'll end up right back where you started, only exhausted, sore, and broken.

[Luke]

Reincarnation does not exist and stop bitchin!

[Thechickensparta]

stop being a bitch and just live life.

[STEM]

At 6/9/10 12:23 AM, Kwing wrote: From what I can tell there is no direction to go in because you'll end up right back where you started, only exhausted, sore, and broken.

This is what I'm having a hard time grasping. Why not just think of your 'life reset' as new and refreshing?

[dec-1310]

At 6/8/10 03:49 PM, JaY11 wrote: So uh, when was it suddenly decided that we are definitely reborn?

This reminded me of a song.......

[4Doctodragon]

Everything is not an endless cycle. We are not reborn. This is science. Fuck your couch. That good enough for ya? Or do you need a boot to the rear?

[MultiCanimefan]

At 6/8/10 03:40 PM, Kwing wrote: I'm a pessimist

Then good luck and Godspeed.