Girlfriend died nearly 2 weeks ago

[nakedxbabe]

She died on friday.
We had a ceremony for her after her death now it is sunday the week after her funeral and i don't think i can ever get over her sudden death..

She told me RIGHT before she killed herself, "if i can't have a baby then neither can you" and she hung up the phone... and she did it i didn't think she would do it because usually she calls back crying saying she's sorry and she wrote me a note too saying that i could have her newgrounds account this is her's i am using.. inside it there was an inbox from her other account she used before that said she tried to have a baby with someone else but she didn't want to because she couldn't bear what the baby would look like but i know that's not true she loved him more then me.. she always told me that before when i just can't have a baby right now i said because i couldn't have supported the baby and her too...
I still love her very much and i don't know what i should do if i should go on living with out her and just try to forget about her which she wouldn't like because she want's me to kill myself if i ever died i don't think i can though because i guess i'm too afraid i can't believe she killed herself because of her obsession of having a baby i can't help but think i should have had that baby with her.. :(

She was the only thing that made me happy in the morning getting texts from her saying how much she loved me... now i wake up with a headache feeling like throwing up and crying a lot.

And now they want me to double my depression pills i don't want to do that i'll never have a job i take that many and my life is already in ruins without her by my side.. :(

[Trepur]

Quickly sell the movie rights!

[Entrax]

She'll be making sandwiches in heaven, don't you worry.

Sorry.

[Cootie]

Pretty depressing story. I am sorry for your loss, but don't blame your self. She obviously has some deep emotional problems and nobody could have helped.

wow compassion on NG

[Trepur]

Seriously though I'm sorry and all but forums are NOT the place to post stuff like this, at least choose a more sympathetic forum than Newgrounds.

[rome-lherison]

At 4/25/10 01:23 AM, Trepur wrote: Quickly sell the movie rights!

It shall be called the Emo and the Troll

[nakedxbabe]

At 4/25/10 01:25 AM, Trepur wrote: Seriously though I'm sorry and all but forums are NOT the place to post stuff like this, at least choose a more sympathetic forum than Newgrounds.

i have no place to go i'm 28 and she was 16 i have no parents i can't go cry to them they're dead too.. my mom died of breast cancer when i was 15 and my dead died a couple weeks after i turned 21.. :/

[Lowercaser]

Not the place to look for compassion, but I feel for you man, my big bro hung himself like 10 months ago and my memories of that day are still as vivid as if i were living them right now. I wont say I know what youre going through because no one can, but I can tell you from experience that it does get easier with time. I think about him every day and I cry my eyes out when i see his name in my phone or on facebook. All i can really say is keep your head down and keep fuckin going, this is what separates real people from spoiled bitches

[BrainlessDan]

At 4/25/10 01:27 AM, rome-lherison wrote:

At 4/25/10 01:23 AM, Trepur wrote: Quickly sell the movie rights!

It shall be called the Emo and the Troll

I would watch that, i love comedies!

[4lec-D]

Neat.

[nakedxbabe]

At 4/25/10 01:32 AM, Lowercaser wrote: Not the place to look for compassion, but I feel for you man, my big bro hung himself like 10 months ago and my memories of that day are still as vivid as if i were living them right now. I wont say I know what youre going through because no one can, but I can tell you from experience that it does get easier with time. I think about him every day and I cry my eyes out when i see his name in my phone or on facebook. All i can really say is keep your head down and keep fuckin going, this is what separates real people from spoiled bitches

thanks i feel even less of a man to start crying to what you just said or even posting on here i know they wouldn't give me compassion i just wanted to go on here and try and get some because this is the last site she was on ...i can sort of see why she did it though she did get a lot of hate mail on here and other places i know she said some stupid things on here but i can't take it or living like this her own mom came to the funeral and didn't even cry at all ...

[Sensationalism]

At 4/25/10 01:28 AM, MisterWonderful wrote:

At 4/25/10 01:25 AM, Trepur wrote: Seriously though I'm sorry and all but forums are NOT the place to post stuff like this, at least choose a more sympathetic forum than Newgrounds.

i have no place to go i'm 28 and she was 16 i

WTF IS THIS SHIT?!??

[Lowercaser]

At 4/25/10 01:36 AM, MisterWonderful wrote:
thanks i feel even less of a man to start crying to what you just said or even posting on here i know they wouldn't give me compassion i just wanted to go on here and try and get some because this is the last site she was on ...i can sort of see why she did it though she did get a lot of hate mail on here and other places i know she said some stupid things on here but i can't take it or living like this her own mom came to the funeral and didn't even cry at all ...

Trust me man, I know its overwhelming, but this isnt where it ends and theres still so much more love for you in this world if youre willing to go out and fucking find it. Dont worry about the haters on this stupid ass site sendin her hate mail and shit, theyre just bitches trying to raise themselves up by puttin people down. And her moms the one who fucked up, not you, give that old ass ho a couple years and she'll be tearin her hair out realizing she fucked up the most beautiful thing she brought into this world. Just dont give in man, dont let the haters win, follow what you love and dont be shy, this is like my third profile on NG and im on here all the time if you need me

[ThePhantomGamer]

At 4/25/10 01:46 AM, Sensationalism wrote:

At 4/25/10 01:28 AM, MisterWonderful wrote:

At 4/25/10 01:25 AM, Trepur wrote: Seriously though I'm sorry and all but forums are NOT the place to post stuff like this, at least choose a more sympathetic forum than Newgrounds.

i have no place to go i'm 28 and she was 16 i

WTF IS THIS SHIT?!??

I know. I'm sorry if this is real, but I smell a troll. This seems a little too made up

[poxpower]

Dude she's was 16.

She did something retarded because she was retarded. Teenagers aren't real people. Don't feel too bad about it. Now chuck those depression pills into a well and go out to bars.

Bars are awesome.

[Sensationalism]

At 4/25/10 01:54 AM, ThePhantomGamer wrote:

At 4/25/10 01:46 AM, Sensationalism wrote:

At 4/25/10 01:28 AM, MisterWonderful wrote: i have no place to go i'm 28 and she was 16 i

WTF IS THIS SHIT?!??

I know. I'm sorry if this is real, but I smell a troll. This seems a little too made up

I know right. And the girl was trying to get pregnant and suicided WTFUCK?!
If this was real I'd shit bricks.

[nakedxbabe]

At 4/25/10 01:56 AM, poxpower wrote: Dude she's was 16.

She did something retarded because she was retarded. Teenagers aren't real people. Don't feel too bad about it. Now chuck those depression pills into a well and go out to bars.

Bars are awesome.

i can't every time i think about what i should do i keep on thinking about things she said that she wanted me to do and things she said she didn't think was right she was very against drugs i know 16 sounds young but i loved her she sounded older in person the way she just was completely made her beautiful i can't stop cryinng i don't think i can ever love anyone at all like the way i loved her ever again..she wasn't retarded she graduated at 16.. she even looked like she was 20 sometimes she looked a little young though like 18 without any make up..

i am a worthless wimp without her i can't believe this is happening

[sinfulwolf]

At 4/25/10 02:01 AM, MisterWonderful wrote:
she sounded older in person

She really really must have, considering the way she's conducted herself around here.

[Trepur]

i am a worthless wimp without her i can't believe this is happening

Pic related

[o0-0o]

At 4/25/10 02:01 AM, MisterWonderful wrote:

she graduated at 16

LOL she graduated life pretty early. Impressive.

[Trepur]

How come at the top of her profile it says "Bio: I'm and offensive 13 year old girl from arizona"?

For starters you said she was 16, and you are from Ohio.

[ZJ]

My spider-senses tell me that you're lying.

[Shikamarana]

At 4/25/10 02:10 AM, puddinN64 wrote: My spider-senses tell me that you're lying.

Don't even get me started

[nakedxbabe]

At 4/25/10 02:08 AM, Trepur wrote: How come at the top of her profile it says "Bio: I'm and offensive 13 year old girl from arizona"?

For starters you said she was 16, and you are from Ohio.

no she would come on here to troll when she had nothing to do i kinda wondered why but i asked and she just said she liked toying with people like they were her pawns she was going to turn 17 soon too and she wanted to move in with me in my apartment once she did turn 17 because then her parents would let her we've been dating since she was 14 i didn't know she was that young till her dad told me..

but she did graduate at 16.. she was home schooled because she got made fun of a lot and her mother would harass her and her dad would get drunk everyday i know she didn't have a good life but she was obsessed with something that made her take her life away i just can't handle talking about her anymore it hurts me so much i can't stop crying from the point i made this post.. :/

[Trepur]

She wrote her suicide note on April 6, which is longer than two weeks ago, and why would she just leave you her Newgrounds account details in a note?

[Luke]

This is so sad.

[nakedxbabe]

At 4/25/10 02:20 AM, Trepur wrote: She wrote her suicide note on April 6, which is longer than two weeks ago, and why would she just leave you her Newgrounds account details in a note?

i have no idea she would keep a lot of notes around my apartment before i even got home ( i gave her the key since she was going to move in with me once she turned 17 )
i know i saw that too.. she told me she left it there and i looked at it and then she handed me another one she said that i had to see it and then she killed herself after we got in a fight on the phone.. :/

so basically its completely my fault in her opinion before she died she wouldn't stop talking about having a baby and saying there was lots of girls her age had them that are 23 now.. i was scared of what people may think too i told her how our age difference was too large that we couldn't have a baby till after she turned 18 but she wouldn't listen she wanted one right there and then.. :(

[Trepur]

K I'm going to stop bothering now, I should have gotten bored of this a long time ago.

[Haoie]

Was this a Lifetime movie?

[sinfulwolf]

You dated a 14 year old at 26...