Are you sure they are not just pissed with all the whining and moaning and also snapping at them all the time?
I never get why you think they treat you so horrible. But i do understand that you suffer large amounts of depression. Go get a part time job and a cheap apartment. or call up a friend if you don't wanna do that.
You'll be fine.
But at least you can be happy knowing your the only poster who mod's don't slap the whole "Gtfo this belongs in your blog thing".
Accomplishment is accomplishment.