I'm TSP and I'm a typically quiet person. I have a strong aversion to people in general, simply because I'm afraid of what they'll think- even though I've almost always had a personality that doesn't give a shit. I think this all stems from a childhood in a house full of judgmental people. No one was good enough for my mother and my father didn't give a shit. However when I hang with friends I'm loud and rowdy, because I don't need to hide behind a thin veil. I use the Internet to subsitute for human contact, and an d also because I can do it butt-naked. I never liked school, mainly because most kids were idiots. I was the 'dark class clown', that no one liked but everyone laughed with. I was the kid every teacher hates to have in their classroom, because I'm typically a smartass. That's a reason why I never made any 'normal' friends, because I simply didn't act the social norm- not because I was trying to stand out or any of that bullshit, but simply because I didn't fit the mold. I was a little chubby, you see. In fact I was a little butterball. Back then it wasn't a huge problem- a little teasing, but I could take down a kid in a few seconds and it stopped. I was repeatedly tested for advanced classes, but I refused, mainly because I'm a lazy motherfucker who doesn't like doing work. When I got to Senior High I met my absolute love of my life Rayne. She was a grade ahead of me, taller at the time, and when I saw her I loved her from the start. Of course we barely made contact that year. Just because of her, I got into a fast-track class and stepped up into some of her 9th grade classes. Just so that I could make her like me more I loss a whole bunch of weight. We started talking in 10th grade, and starting dating in the 11th. To this day she is smart and funny, beatiful, and everything else you hear in countless corny romances. But it's true. We got engaged when I was 22 and she was 23. Some said that was too early, but we were stupid and in love. A few months later we learned she was pregnant. We had an abortion. It was a very stressing time on both me and her, and our relationship almost broke apart. But we stayed together and we're getting married, this spring. I have never regretted a single decision I made with her.
What else? I'm a medical student at Stetson. I never really wanted to become a doctor, until sometime in Junior High. I realized I would want to save lives, and make some kind of importance. I wanted someone to care for me with all their life, I wanted someone to be dependent on me. I know it seems like all the wrong reasons, but it was what I chose. I'm becoming an E.M.T in about a month, to pursue my vision of saving people. Do I have somewhat of a Messiah complex? Yes. I don't mind, though.
There's much more I could say about my life, but that's all I feel like remembering for now.
Hah, you were expecting a joke?
