i need help

[narkij]

i need help, i think i'm on the borderline of going off the deep end but i want to prevent this from happening. i was raped of a normal childhood, raped of normal adolescent years by the people around me. from an early age, the people i thought were my friends increasingly ignored me and eventually physically/verbally assaulted me, slandered me, downgraded me, even though i did nothing to hurt them, i didn't even say anything to them later, i was just following because i had nowhere else to turn to, they ditched me and then just beat me for no fucking reason. this continued into my later years, it didn't stop there, everyone just treated me or perceived me as something inferior. i may have some condition, autism or asperger's, or on the same spectrum, not enough to severely affect my life but i think enough to be noticeable to some degree (though not diagnosed), yet they didn't treat this as a handicap, they turned the personality traits that such disorders exploited against me. the closest thing i've had to real "friends" and not just acquaintances were the people in my childhood, the same people who decided to rape me the opportunity of a normal life and push me into the other side. now i perceive the world in a fucked up way, i'm not sure if it's mainly due to genetics or the environment but probably a combination of both with each affecting me to a significant degree. i dont know if a psychiatrist will help, i remember going to one or two a long time ago but they never changed any of my thoughts, and i dont think my thoughts can ever be changed by a psychiatrist. is anyone here in my situation, what should i do. medication?

[Sekhem]

you should smoke weed and chill out

[Guest8792]

A terrible childhood makes the adult years that much more satisfying.

But seriously, your a pussy for thinking about suicide. You'll get no sympathy here. You don't know true pain.

[narkij]

At 10/15/09 09:21 PM, Sekhem wrote: you should smoke weed and chill out

i've done weed, it does nothing for me. alcohol and shit like that does nothing for me. thanks for the cliche but useless excuse

[Blush]

Well I would suggest going to a psychiatrist, although NG isn't really that much of a helpful place. I mean a bunch of retarded 13 year olds aren't really that good at giving advice.

[gamekillereater]

Raped =/= robbed.
I almost thought you were victim of incest.
But seriously though, talk to your doctor if it's true, NG isn't really the place to ask.

[narkij]

At 10/15/09 09:22 PM, Guest8792 wrote: A terrible childhood makes the adult years that much more satisfying.

But seriously, your a pussy for thinking about suicide. You'll get no sympathy here. You don't know true pain.

i never said anything about suicide. i have never seriously considered suicide.

i am not a pussy.

[Digital-Terror]

Why don't you go meddle around with your own kind?

[behemothfan]

disorders exploited against me. the closest thing i've had to real "friends" and not just acquaintances were the people in my childhood, the same people who decided to rape me the opportunity of a normal life and push me into the other side. now i perceive the world in a fucked up way, i'm not sure if it's mainly due to genetics or the environment but probably a combination of both with each affecting me to a significant degree. i dont know if a psychiatrist will help, i remember going to one or two a long time ago but they never changed any of my thoughts, and i dont think my thoughts can ever be changed by a psychiatrist. is anyone here in my situation, what should i do. medication?

This describes the life of an average 13 year old.

[Kaizerwolf]

Would you like a figurative chill pill, OP?

I've got plenty in my cabinet.

[TOEZ]

You should go on a school rampage the way you're talking. Seriously, no one gives a shit if you were raped, or so you repeat, like it's a motif. This is the wrong site to be asking for some psychological "advice".

[Blush]

At 10/15/09 09:24 PM, Digital-Terror wrote: Why don't you go meddle around with your own kind?

Or he can go get support.

[EyeLovePoozy]

"Get the fuck off the internet if you're really in need and seek professional attention."

That's what I would say if I wasn't positive that you were just a bored cunt in need of a swift kick in the pants. So now that we're past that pleasantry I'll say, get your skates, put 'em on, pick up speed as you skate around in a circle, when you reach ludicrous speeds, crash right into the AIDS tree and stfu.

Thank you come again.