Here's exactly what was said:
"I want to apologize for the last couple of journal entries. I don't like ranting about my personal life into my journals, but the last problem in my life was, needless to say, a DOOZY. My 6 year relationship with my (now) ex-boyfriend ended in a very cruel manner. I'm not gonna go into too much detail. Rest assured folks, it was ugly AND humiliating. NOT something I'd like to repeat in this lifetime.
In any case, the long and the short of it is this: I've finished wasting my tears over it. I can't go on blaming myself. You know, even after all this he doesn't even talk to me anymore. I guess I can't blame him though, either he's feeling really bad or really awkward. OR he's just very busy with his new life. Either way, I wasn't enough for him. And whether or not he talks to me again should not and WILL NOT be the deciding factor in whether I live or die. All I can do is pick myself up, dust myself off and go on knowing that I tried my best"