At 9/20/09 04:28 PM, NEVR wrote:
In another 10 years time I'll be nearly 31 :((((((((((((((
Now that's a sadder way of putting it! Now that I've spent the last few minutes thinking about it (which isn't particularly healthy, but it's the kind of thinking where you might emerge a stronger person of some sort), what really speaks to me is that a few years ago, I was always thinking that I had a lot of time to work out my life and decide on certain things, but the time I was supposed to have for that has mysteriously disappeared. You guys were talking about the Lord of the Rings films - I remember seeing all three of them with my Dad at the cinema. They were un-notable trips, but I didn't go in looking to think about the film I was going to watch. That's something I've built upon since, but you know... I'm struggling to describe things here.
And I brought something up the other day, about how long it's been since I discovered this very website... only it's not been a "long" time, just over six years. That got me down, especially when I considered the guy who got me interested in this place. And lack of accomplishment, but I get that every day for real life anyway. I don't have my self-deprecating comedy punchlines yet, so you just get the set up.
Another thing that gets me here is that I sound like an old man. Whenever I speak to my grandparents, they always have some polite jabbing at themselves about their age, "When you get to my age, colds catch up on you a bit easier." etc. It's like I'm doing their bit without really having the right to do so, because I'm not old, I'm young, nineteen years old! The average age of the combat soldier in Vietnam, S-S-Saigon. I'm being overdramatic, but you might see what I mean. It's like an out-of-sequence mid-life crisis.
I should really stop thinking about things like this :)
