And tonight

[Seriana]

I see you, woman. I can see what you're doing. What you're conspiring. What you really think.

I see the way you look at your son. And how you look at me.
I know that look well. It's hatred. Revulsion. Anger, pride, regret. That's the reason why you ejected me into nowhere.
That's the reason why you coddle your daughters and neglect your son.

I see you, every day, spoiling them. Taking them shopping. Buying them gifts. Sacrificing limbs to make their lives easier.
I see you, every day, abusing your son. Confining him to his room, telling him he is a failure, useless, that he should have been born female. Forcing him to do hard work at such a young and innocent age when he can't even figure out what's wrong with himself.

I see your daughters, and what they're like. 13 years old and they spend 18 hours a day either texting or IMing other girls about sex, drugs.
I watched them grow. I listen to them talk. I observe them mindlessly babble on about how great fucking those 8 boys yesterday were. I watch them talk and chatter endlessly about how they'll marry a rich man as soon as they can so they can go shopping and get their nails done until they die.
I watch her sneak out at midnight and come home at 5, shitfaced drunk and walking bowlegged.
I see their intelligence. Or rather, lack of it. Incapable of the most basic English and their own native languages. Incapable of the most basic arithmetic and logic and morality.

I see your only son as well. I listen to him talk about his ambitions. He wants to be a lawyer, a doctor, a fireman, to help the world be a better place at the cost of his own enjoyment.
I watch him read fantasy books into the night and watch him dream of other worlds. I listen to his endless questions of life and its purpose. I watch him struggle to understand what he endures from his family.
I watch him fight an uphill battle to learn and learn. Not for the empty purpose of impressing, but for true enlightenment.

I cast my field of view farther out.
And I see the same hatred in every other females' eyes. The kind of hatred that starts wars, that leaves people dead in alleys.
And I see every other mother doing this to their children. Sometimes unconsciously, sometimes consciously. But there's no regret in it. You take joy, immense pleasure because there is nothing we can do. You giggle and laugh and chuckle at their misery and use it to feed your own ego.
I used to see the same kind of look in my own mother's eyes when I was with her. Her resentment that I couldn't be her perfect daughter she could actually love. The ironic disappointment I turned out to be.

Whenever I walk in the streets and pass you driving in a car at an intersection, I see the same look. The look that says, "I can press the gas pedal and I could run him over and nobody would care and I would enjoy it".
I see that twitch in your arms every time I walk into a kitchen and you are holding a knife. The temptation to stab me and watch my life's blood pour out in a fountain while you laugh.
Every opportunity to cast your arrogant, self righteous, view in my direction and spit and laugh at me.

It is my job to only observe; not to judge.
And tonight, I shed a single tear for someone other than myself. For everyone that has, and will, suffer for all their life based on a coin toss they never got to choose.
But most of all, for every woman for becoming truly so deluded as to bring humanity to this.

[Seriana]

At 8/6/09 03:10 PM, chubbthehippo wrote: I see you too, Pounce.

hey i was trying to sound dramatic, if i wanted to make a humorous topic i would have just posted gore

[Prinzy2]

You can't blame women for everything. Actually, you can't blame them for anything, it's all their man's fault for not training her right.

[Seriana]

At 8/6/09 03:23 PM, Prinzy2 wrote: You can't blame women for everything. Actually, you can't blame them for anything, it's all their man's fault for not training her right.

Murder is not as easy for me as it seems.

Not because I have a crisis of morality, but because I can't have sex with the judge to get a lifetime free ticket out of charges.

[Samen]

At 8/6/09 03:29 PM, Pounce wrote:

At 8/6/09 03:23 PM, Prinzy2 wrote: You can't blame women for everything. Actually, you can't blame them for anything, it's all their man's fault for not training her right.

Murder is not as easy for me as it seems.

Not because I have a crisis of morality, but because I can't have sex with the judge to get a lifetime free ticket out of charges.

Oh, of course you can, you just haven't found the right jurisdiction yet!

[Bolo]

How typically misogynistic of you. Is this story based on fact, or it it based on perceptions formed into fabrications? If your aim was drama, you certainly succeeded, but considering the fact at you, at least for a short time, desired to change your gender to female, I have a hard time understanding why it is that you hold such an apparent deep hatred for all women as if they'd personally wronged you. I'm having difficulty understanding your motivations. Is there something I'm missing?

[Gortag]

grow some balls and shut the fuck up

[Krbyfan1]

And what of men who abuse their daughters? I guess men never do anything wrong.

[Seriana]

At 8/6/09 03:41 PM, Bolo wrote: Is this story based on fact, or it it based on perceptions formed into fabrications?

A little combination of both. Personal anecdotes of others under influence and my own judgments mixed in.

considering the fact at you, at least for a short time, desired to change your gender to female

Nobody quite seems to understand why I did it. Seeing as how I never really bothered to explain it, I guess it's my fault that people ran around with their own wrong theories.

I don't want to become a female; I just need a collective experience of a lifetime for a particular goal I had in mind.
Naturally I've decided that this is impossible; and I've found a much, much more efficient method than injecting medicine.

But that is my personal crisis now, rather than something I'm going to exude everywhere.

I have a hard time understanding why it is that you hold such an apparent deep hatred for all women as if they'd personally wronged you. I'm having difficulty understanding your motivations. Is there something I'm missing?

Well, if you read the post..

[Excursius]

i see you too.

[Seriana]

i bruise easily
so be gentle when you handle me

[Gagsy]

I'd worry about you if you were someone I liked.

[RocketBean]

At 8/6/09 03:23 PM, Prinzy2 wrote: You can't blame women for everything. Actually, you can't blame them for anything, it's all their man's fault for not training her right.

Tis true. We men need to get our property in shape.

[Tea]

Poems are only good if they are short and clever.

[Seriana]

At 8/6/09 09:09 PM, Gagsy wrote: I'd worry about you if you were someone I liked.

I antagonize everyone for a reason.

Concern is a worthless anchor that drags you away from success.

[Gagsy]

At 8/6/09 09:13 PM, Pounce wrote:

I antagonize everyone for a reason.

Concern is a worthless anchor that drags you away from success.

No, determination and brains drag me away from success.

[Tea]

At 8/6/09 09:13 PM, Pounce wrote:

At 8/6/09 09:09 PM, Gagsy wrote: I'd worry about you if you were someone I liked.

I antagonize everyone for a reason.

Concern is a worthless anchor that drags you away from success.

Was that a poem?
I really cant tell.

[Seriana]

At 8/6/09 09:14 PM, Gagsy wrote: No, determination and brains drag me away from success.

No, your lack of determination and brains is what is dragging you away from success.

[Gagsy]

At 8/6/09 09:16 PM, Pounce wrote:

At 8/6/09 09:14 PM, Gagsy wrote: No, determination and brains drag me away from success.

No, your lack of determination and brains is what is dragging you away from success.

Yes that.

See my lack of a brain caused me to make that error.