A very good friend of mine died last night giving birth. She also had lung cancer which was a huge factor so we knew it was going to be her time soon...This morning I got a im from her sister explaining what happened and sent me an email with the note. Names are taken out (except for mine)
My letter
To Adam-
Yeah, I know what you're thinking, "Why the fucking hell would she write me a fucking note?" Well, you're my cousin's boyfriend and I love you, like you're my brother and shit. I'm actually in labor as I'm writing this. And lemme tell you, you better fucking be there for GF, it's a bitch. Take good care of my cousin. I know I've been a bitch, but I take it all back if it can be taken back. I'm sorry. Tell GF to be brave and stay away from the knife. If she cuts, do not yell at her. It makes her feel good. Always love her and keep her protected and safe. Make sure she knows GUY, GUY2, and I all loved her. Tell her not to cry.
Ok, Adam. My wish is that you will always be with GF, forever. Don't ever leave her. I know what she's thinking right now, "If Ashley dies then I only have Adam left and what if he leaves?" Make sure that doesn't happen. I'm dying, without a doubt I won't be here to see her get married to you, or see your kids grow up, or go to fucked up family reunions that you attend. Don't bring anything up around GF or her parents or your parents. Thanks. Just give her reminders when your sitting in your on her roof making out, "Ashley loved you, GF." "GUY2 loved you, GF." "GUY1 may of been a douche, but he loved you, GF." And listen to this song Hello by Evanescence.
Feel free to read GF's letter, I'd actually like you to, before you read it aloud to her. I want you to tell her what happened. Tell her not to cry. Thanks, man. I owe you one. See ya in Hell, buddy.
Love,
Crazy Bitch Ashley.
GF-
Do not cry. Please don't. I know its hard. You got through it with Grandmom, GUY2, and GUY1. Be strong and go through it again, just once more. We all know I'm gonna be dead within 24 hours. I remember when you were like 5 and we'd all sit in the computer room, me, you, GUY3, GIRL1, and GIRL2. We'd play that donkey game we made up. Where you'd crawl over us then jump on one and crawl through Aunt Dorthey's house while the person who got jumped on would look for you slowly. And one fourth of July you bit GIRL2 and didn't say sorry. Haha, the best. And when you and I would fight for nothing and end up hugging. I'm sorry, GF. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry I smoked and got pregnant and that's what killed GUY1 and it's all my fault. Get over this and be with Adam. Shove your tongue in his mouth and be together forever no matter what, it's all I ask. Read those depressing books until you get sick of crying about them. Write a lot. Continue your wall, don't stop everything because of me. Don't try and be like me either. Stay like GUY2. Don't cut, I understand it gets rid of your pain, but it scars your gorgeous body.
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I know what you're gonna do. Adam is gonna read this to you and your gonna cry and your gonna say be right back once its over and slam the phone down and run to your room and just bawl. Don't hide your cries from Adam. We were close, he should understand. It's hard losing someone. Its even harder when that person was always around and was always there. Take those fucking pictures off the wall, btw.
I fucking love you, GF. I really do. I'm naming my baby Mel after you. I hope you meet her one day, she'll be just like you. I already know. GF, I love you and nothing can change that. This isn't meant to be romantic, but I never told you until when I went into labor. GF, I heard you holding those tears back. Don't cry over me.
Adam's gonna be pissed when he reads this long ass letter to you, but I don't care. AND HE BETTER READ THIS LONG ASS LETTER TO YOU! Right, A-damn?
I love you GF, remember my wish. Now, go shove your tongue in Adam's mouth and hug him and don't let go. Write me something.
Yours in eternity,
Ashley, baby.
p.s.- GO LISTEN TO HELLO BY EVANESCENCE. <3. love ya, Melly Jelly. Live long and prosper. *PEACE*
idk....i just needed to show someone, it made me cry a little. she was a great person and ill miss her dearly
R.I.P Ashley
we will miss you
