You have daydreamed up this anime girl who you want materialized in some way so you can stare at her and daydream more, so you can "ask her out" because she conveniently likes kids (not "men") like you. Even though she is only imaginary.
This is depressing :(. Do not become fixated on drawings of fake girls, or you'll just grow up awkwardly.
And what the hell is with you "banning" people on your user updates and proceeding to ejaculate "hahahahahahhaha!" Like they care at all that you banned them?
This is very depressing :(