That's why I'm a Cristian Gnostic, I believe the old testament isn't really gods work, and that the things that are true, (the new testament) must be read spiritually, not literal. Also the current bible and the church doesn't represent Jesus's True teachings, a lot of them where banned because they threatened the political power of the church.
What Jesus Truly thought was of reaching the "kingdom of within" or called in gnosticism "Logos" it is similar to Buddhism, but different names for stuff, and a little easier to understand.
I used to be conflicted, I was religious, but a lot of thing didn't make sense, such as differences between the old and new testaments, and some stuff that happened in the old testament, and it rejected proven science, like the big bang, and evolution.
Gnosticism allows for science, most of the teachings need to do with the soul, and reaching logos, not literal things, one belief is that the material world is irrelevant, the body is just a vessel for your soul, and that sex is sacred because it is the doorway for rebirth and part of the rebirth cycle(yes there is reincarnation) and hell is earth the physical realm, not a pit of fire, only a few evil souls are locked up, not in a pit of fire, they just can't be reborn and drag the Earth-human race down again.
Use your mind to look past the truth, do so until you find the truth, when you find the truth you'll be disturbed, then you'll be amazed.
I live in a religious area, I know how brainwashed some people can be, I try to help them but in the end they choose.