Good god, if that's what ambient does, I don't want to see you experience death metal
Thats my goal. You see, I'm trying to secretly kill people with my music. lulululz.
But in all seriousness, I tried meditating. Its a neat experience, but I find it very scary at times and find myself in moments of pure terror as if my nightmares become reality. I once was meditating and feel into a deep trance for about ten hours where I was trapped in a large, endless obstacle course where me and a few survivors of some strange battle were being kept prisoners. I kept dying in the most horrible ways. Acid melting my body, giant walls crushing me, metal wires chopping me up, monsters eating me, saw blades slowly sinking into my skin. Everytime I died I felt so much pain. I watched my organs fall out of my body. I felt my eyes push themselves into my skull during one death where the pressure in the air changed dramatically and my body imploded.
That was the first part of the experience. The second part was a bit more isolated. I was in the house I grew up in, but no one was there. I looked outside and everything was covered in snow. I wondered around aimlessly for hours, searching for someone, anything, but found nothing. Pretty soon a volcano erupted out of the ice and everything blew up from meteors falling from the sky.
At this point, I THOUGHT I woke up... but I really wasn't. I was still fucking dreaming but I didn't realize it. Some weird shit happened that I can not recall, but I kept trying to wake up. Basically during this segment, I was being attacked emotional by everyone around me. Friends and family called me a pig fucker, a loser, a skank, and other weird shit. I went to "school" later and everyone thought I was a weirdo and all my friend abandoned me.
I can't recall the rest of the dream, but when I woke up it was 4PM.
A small portion of my very long composition, Ironesque Valley, describes my feelings to some extent about this experience. Most of the song is about my real life experiences and not what I felt when asleep, however.
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I love arabian death metal.