Something horrible just happened. Gonna try to keep this as short as possible.
I doubt that I spoke of this in the Lounge before, but my mother has an alcohol problem. I rarely speak about this with my friends and it's ironic that I am posting this here, but I feel that you can relate or give better advice.
Anyway, today Mom got drunk again and started getting at me. I already know it's useless to look for a compromise while she is in such a state, so I just went to bed. But it was really early, which is why I ended up reading and playing the guitar instead of sleeping.
Suddenly, mother rushes in and starts shouting and saying that I have to go to bed. I said, alright and started shutting down my laptop and putting away my guitar. She runs in again after a minute and sees that I am still out of bed. This results in a lot swearing. I couldn't keep silent and replied, so she attempted to smash all of my belongings that she had in her sight. Luckily I was fast enough, picked her up and carried her to her bedroom, saying that she is a bit drunk and must have a rest. This enraged her and she kicked, slapped me and ran into my bedroom. I enter and see her throwing down my TV, closing my laptop with excesive strength and kicking my backpack.
Shocked, I shouted, asking what the fuck was she achieving with this behaviour. She ignores this and goes for my guitars. In this moment, I couldn't control myself, so I grab her trying to stop her from causing any more damage. She resists, punches me and that's when I slap her back. Apparently it was a heavy one, which wasn't my intention (Guess it was heavy, because I have been boxing for so long. I swear it was light)
In shock she says that I am a shitty son, I should go die and starts saying if it weren't for her, my step dad wouldn't love me, etc, the usual shit.
So here I sit, mad at myself and my mother. I understand that I am fighting with her addiction, because when he isn't drinking - she is the most lovely lady in the world
I don't regret using force, because in the end she could've broken all of my shit.
Putting this out here because it's kind of difficult to cope with this on my own. ( My step dad is abroad right now)
Sorry for such a long read, my friends, but I can't keep this inside...