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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 09:26:48 Reply

At 12/19/12 11:03 AM, jpbear wrote:
We've been over this before, my ONLY problem with transgender and gender changed people is that they have to get an operation done. I think it far over steps the bounds of what a doctor should be able to do on a medical level, and it sure as hell should not be covered publicly (just like abortions shouldnt either and other operations)

I've woken up in a hospital twice. I did NOT want to be there. If it wasn't for modern medicine though there's no doubt in my mind that I'd be dead today. When my brain was swelling after my car accident/during my coma the doctors talked about removing a square chunk of my skull and attaching it to my knee cap to keep the bone alive. They didn't have to do that but they still drilled a few holes into my skull to relieve the swelling.

That was when I was 20. When I was 16 I got assaulted by the captains of my schools track team. I had to get five metal plates put into my face. When I woke up it had been a nine hour surgery and someone had snuck a catheter up my dick >:C

I have a lot of confidence in modern medicine. As violated as it makes me feel to know that I'm paying someone a shit ton of money to dig around inside of me and touch all of my moist cells, it also makes me feel incredibly secure about myself knowing that these same people are there to help save my life.

btw, that car accident was kind of an attempt at suicide. Never really told anyone that.

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 11:42:11 Reply

At 12/20/12 09:26 AM, Quarl wrote: btw, that car accident was kind of an attempt at suicide. Never really told anyone that.

Well shit. As I recall from a comment on Facebook there was someone else with you in that car.

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At 12/20/12 11:42 AM, Mich wrote:
At 12/20/12 09:26 AM, Quarl wrote: btw, that car accident was kind of an attempt at suicide. Never really told anyone that.
Well shit. As I recall from a comment on Facebook there was someone else with you in that car.

Walker, best friend of mine since 1st grade. Hence why I've never told any one that. He used to tell me to drive fast every where we went. He'd say "I don't want to wait around, make it quick." I was really depressed that year. While I certainly didn't want to kill my friend I was sure as hell ready and willing to die young. I drove recklessly that night because I just didn't care anymore. I told myself that if I died then great. I figured it's what I ultimately wanted. We were a reckless duo.

I woke up in the hospital a few weeks after the accident and was horrified by all the stories my friends and family relayed to me. My memory didn't come back at once. Instead it came back slowly. My dad told me that at first, I couldn't even recognize him. I can recall a time when I could form a perfect sentence in my head but when I tried to move my mouth only gibberish would come out. Some friends visited me while I was in the hospital. The next day I thought that had been a dream.

The weirdest story came from my brother Casey. The coma was drug induced and every so often they'd wake me to see if I was coherent. I was strapped into a bed with needles feeding me, a respirator breathing for me and a catheter peeing for me. This was the second time I've ever been in the hospital for something serious and this was the second time someone thought it would be funny to put a catheter up there. They fucking love putting things up your dick.

My brother said that every time they woke me up I would jerk about in my bed trying to get out of my restraints. I would thrash about and look around the room like a wild animal. Then they would put me back into my coma until I could calm down. At one awakening I actually managed to break out of my restraints and I started pulling needles out of my body. The doctor, my dad and my brother had to try to hold me down while the nurse strapped me back in.

I realized that I never want to put my friends or family through something like that ever again. I could have killed my best friend. I could have killed myself. I could talk all day about that fucking car accident. I could tell you about mental/ physical therapy. What it's like to have to relearn how to walk. I could tell you what it feels like to wake up in a hospital a half second after being with your best friend. The only thing I can't tell you is what it's like to actually be in a car accident. I can't honestly remember it.

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At 12/20/12 01:52 PM, Quarl wrote:

I realized that I never want to put my friends or family through something like that ever again. I could have killed my best friend. I could have killed myself. I could talk all day about that fucking car accident. I could tell you about mental/ physical therapy. What it's like to have to relearn how to walk. I could tell you what it feels like to wake up in a hospital a half second after being with your best friend. The only thing I can't tell you is what it's like to actually be in a car accident. I can't honestly remember it.

I guess fate decided that you still had more to your life than you knew yourself at that moment. If it weren't for that, I wouldn't have been able to meet you this past summer.

We were like long lost best friends, and I bet the next day we meet each other again it'll be the same.

I remember when I was at your stage of depression. It was absolutely horrible. I hated everyone and I hated myself and all I wanted to happen was to be struck down by lighting. (I wanted to die through natural causes, because the only thing that was holding me back was through my music). My music would live forever with my soul but my physical self would be gone.

I am glad that you have recovered from that. I guess newgrounds musicians has a common theme, because as I seem to recall we all had terribly depressive years.

I guess that's why I think of you guys as family. <3

Please don't ever disappear. (that means everyone who I currently talk to here). If you guys just left, I'd probably be lost again. No one to talk to, no one to share my music to that cares.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 15:43:51 Reply

At 12/20/12 03:37 PM, Sequenced wrote: I guess that's why I think of you guys as family. <3

One big not-so-happy family!


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 15:45:19 Reply

At 12/20/12 03:37 PM, Sequenced wrote:
I am glad that you have recovered from that. I guess newgrounds musicians has a common theme, because as I seem to recall we all had terribly depressive years.

That's the main reason why I avoid posting about negative things in my life in the forums. We all have hard times/ experiences and I'd rather us all be happy.

I guess that's why I think of you guys as family. <3

Damn, I miss that feeling. I feel so far removed from ng at this point. Fucking famz :C

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At 12/20/12 03:45 PM, Quarl wrote:

Damn, I miss that feeling. I feel so far removed from ng at this point. Fucking famz :C

Must of us are in a skype chat. It gets tiring sometimes to only post here haha.

add me - williamdekeizer .


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 16:05:52 Reply

At 12/20/12 03:43 PM, Back-From-Purgatory wrote:
At 12/20/12 03:37 PM, Sequenced wrote: I guess that's why I think of you guys as family. <3
One big not-so-happy family!

I call dibs on being the cool but somewhat eccentric uncle.

In all seriousness, @Quarl/Sequenced, glad you two are both over from those issues. Depression's a nasty thing. I actually used to be a bit depressed when I was like 12 - 14 (no suicidal thoughts or anything, just being depressed for literally no reason at all... I guess that's puberty for you) so I can perhaps begin to relate. Making music was probably one of the only things that kept me sane, even if at the time I was absolutely crap at it.

Having said that, allow this adorable gif to lighten the mood.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 16:21:49 Reply

At 12/20/12 04:05 PM, Step wrote: Having said that, allow this adorable gif to lighten the mood.

That gif suits you, Step.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 18:18:26 Reply

Any one have any practical jokes that your going to play on your friends who think the world is going to end tomorrow? hah

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-20 21:44:24 Reply

At 12/20/12 06:18 PM, Tabu112 wrote: Any one have any practical jokes that your going to play on your friends who think the world is going to end tomorrow? hah

put a cardboard box over his bead while he is sleeping and duct tape the windows and lock his door

that way he'll definitely think that he is dead.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 02:12:58 Reply

At 12/21/12 02:12 AM, SuperBastard wrote: It's well past midnight. Where are all the fires and mayhem?

soon. from the riots started by idiots.

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 02:18:03 Reply

At 12/21/12 02:12 AM, SuperBastard wrote: It's well past midnight. Where are all the fires and mayhem?

Still around 4 hours till ETEOTW.

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 12:50:10 Reply

At 12/21/12 11:27 AM, Braiton wrote: So apparently the world didn't end.
Fuckin' miracles.

Meh, I guess continuing to infest this chunk of space rock has some advantages, but I wouldn't put it on the same level as magnets.

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 13:00:46 Reply

At 12/20/12 03:45 PM, Quarl wrote:
Damn, I miss that feeling. I feel so far removed from ng at this point. Fucking famz :C

same here sadly.

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 13:04:30 Reply

At 12/20/12 03:43 PM, Back-From-Purgatory wrote:
At 12/20/12 03:37 PM, Sequenced wrote: I guess that's why I think of you guys as family. <3
One big not-so-happy family!

I feel like I'm that weird cousin who shows up every couple years on Thanksgiving and never really talks much about what he does or where he's been.

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 13:21:31 Reply

At 12/21/12 01:00 PM, Chronamut wrote:
At 12/20/12 03:45 PM, Quarl wrote:
Damn, I miss that feeling. I feel so far removed from ng at this point. Fucking famz :C
same here sadly.

yeahhh but you're like one of those legendary pokemon. There's only one of you and you've been around since like... forever which makes you super old!

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 14:57:14 Reply

At 12/21/12 11:27 AM, Braiton wrote: So apparently the world didn't end.
Fuckin' miracles.

the only people that stated the world was gonna end was the media.. mayans stated it is the end of a cycle and the beginning of a new age. So basically things just get better from here.

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At 12/21/12 02:57 PM, Chronamut wrote:
At 12/21/12 11:27 AM, Braiton wrote: So apparently the world didn't end.
Fuckin' miracles.
the only people that stated the world was gonna end was the media.. mayans stated it is the end of a cycle and the beginning of a new age. So basically things just get better from here.

correction. the aztecs.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 15:18:52 Reply

At 12/21/12 01:21 PM, Quarl wrote:
yeahhh but you're like one of those legendary pokemon. There's only one of you and you've been around since like... forever which makes you super old!

but you're super old too :P

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 15:36:43 Reply

At 12/21/12 11:27 AM, Braiton wrote: So apparently the world didn't end.
Fuckin' miracles.

Blame religious fanatics and the media hype.

No one with a brain ever believed the world was going to end.

Scienticians, what do they know huh?

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 17:33:27 Reply

Hmmm.
Im on a very confusing plane of existence right now.
-I have the music inside me!
-I dont know how to write it
-The ideas escape my mind if I dont write them down or something

So I learn music theory in an attempt to try to learn how to read/write sheet music.
I feel as though maybe it was the wrong course...
I dont know what the FUCK im doing anymore. Nothing seems to make sense.

Im 30 something lessons in, I try to read some sheet music to test myself, and I still cant tell you what im reading. Like I can interpret things, like what note it is and what semitone, wholetone, etc. but if you asked me what it SOUNDED like, I could not tell you.
If you asked me to write something, I would not know how.

Whats my next step? What now? Where do I go? Where am I going? Whats the point? I DONT FUCKING KNOW and its frustrating as shit.

Im a beginner piano player now. I guess that would be the next step. I can play twinkle twinkle little star...last week. I already forgot how to play it. It would help if I was going off skill not memory. Im playing the song, but I dont really know what im doing. Im just remember 'finger here, pinkie here, thumb here, press once, press twice' etc. nothing clicks, so I dont feel anything.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-21 17:50:41 Reply

At 12/21/12 05:33 PM, sweet21 wrote: but if you asked me what it SOUNDED like, I could not tell you.

Ear training is what you need, if you want to be able to sight read music and know approximately what it'd sound like, you need to be able to hear the sound of the notes you're reading, you need to associate what's on paper with audible sound.

It's just muscle memory IMO, play a C on your piano/keyboard, match your voice to it, play a C#, match your voice to it, etc. etc... go all the way up an octave like that, then try to do it without the piano.

You'd basically be doing vocal training at the same time, because it's a lot easier to be able to vocalize a note to get a good idea of what something sounds like as opposed to just thinking of what it should sound like.

Not that I'm an expert or anything, but that's more or less how I go about sight reading.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-22 03:37:51 Reply

At 12/21/12 05:50 PM, Back-From-Purgatory wrote:
At 12/21/12 05:33 PM, sweet21 wrote: but if you asked me what it SOUNDED like, I could not tell you.
Ear training is what you need

Ear training will help you make sense of the theory, but you've got to be diligent because it takes a lot of monotonous work.

A really great program to help you out is "EarMaster". It starts off from the very basics and gives you a crapton of different exercises to help you train your ears. It very gradually gets harder and harder, to the point where even experts will have trouble successfully completing the exercises. It's a great piece of software and you can integrate it in your schedule very easily, but remember that you need to be dedicated and consistent with it, not give up after a few days. It's also not free.

Other than that, my only other advice is to do more and more piano practising, but reading off a music score. It's useless learning just the theory if in your head you can't put it in practice. Music theory is there to be put in practice, not there to be studied like a history book. You can either buy some music books or download some music scores off the Internet. The latter especially will be fun because you can download scores of your favourite music and music from your favourite games, hence giving you even more of a drive to practise them.


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-22 06:59:17 Reply

Mandatory I survived Doomsday post, whee

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-22 12:17:52 Reply

At 12/20/12 03:45 PM, Quarl wrote: Damn, I miss that feeling. I feel so far removed from ng at this point. Fucking famz :C

I haven't felt it for years... but I did once. I don't know; I used to see NG as a family. These days, it's just another website to me :\

Also, thanks for sharing your stories here Quarl.

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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-22 12:30:51 Reply

At 12/22/12 06:59 AM, MrSaint wrote: Mandatory I survived Doomsday post, whee

Wasn't there a place in Russia 1000 people pay $1500 for a doomsday hideout?


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Response to The Audio Forum Lounge 2012-12-22 13:06:27 Reply

At 12/22/12 06:59 AM, MrSaint wrote: Mandatory I survived Doomsday post, whee

Well, it's only the 183th time humanity survives Doomsday since the fall of the Roman Empire.


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