RL issue.

[Damien]

Dear Newgrounds,

I come here with an issue because since the day I signed up I've always came here for my issues, and they always seem to make me see things from a different perspective.

So here I am once again, with a Real Life issue.

It's hard to put this in text, but I'll do my best to make myself clear. It is about a certain frustration inside of me. Something I've been covering up (appearantly) for a while.
Although this is mere speculation of the analasys of my brain, I do believe it sounds reasonable.

Well, of all people you should understand this the best though. It concerns my computer life style in a way.
My computer, is like my lucky charm. It's an object that's not just any object. It's my personally adjusted sidekick that helps me through life a bit.
This computer companion-thingy, started when the computer came to my room.

Sparing the story of this growth, I'll get to the point.
We have moved to a new house and I lost my room. Why? Why don't I have a room? Well I have no idea. Because it's cheaper to rent an apartment without the extra room I guess.
Well, for a year I haven't really made an issue of it, but not knowing the big difference between PC in room, and PC without room.

Now, I feel like I have "lost the ability to express myself" to make it sound a bit cliché. But this nothing more then the truth.
In the past, I could put my focus on something (Flash, Photoshop, etc) and could really create something worthfull.
Now all I get is these distractions, and these frustrations all the time as I find no peace of mind. Everything seems to disturb me.

This is a serious issue and has been affecting my real life in a negative way.

But now for the part where I "upress" it in a way.
The day we decided to move, there was some kind of agreement of me getting the living room, but creating some kind of wall for giving me privacy.
But over the years nothing has really happened.

I always said it was no big deal, because well...I think it really shouldn't be. I mean, my mother has enough worries on her own....This shouldn't be an isse. But the fact could very well be that these frustrations I get once in a while could have a bad affect (indirectly) on my mother.

Meaning, my mother gets stress no matter what....

I'm really on the end of the road here. I'm almost 18 and feel like shit because of something I recently figured out.

I'm just gonna end this here, with the information that I have been inturrupted 3 times while typing this.

Each time making me loose concentration and my track of mind...And each time, upressing emotional issues which I struggle with

Although I have to end, I have my serious doubts about this whole speculation I just placed here, is this really the rational thing to think? Is this really the issue which bothers me? Or is it just some lame excuse to place myself infront of my monitor more(I have a laptop though)

Urgh....

[AlmostDead1]

Thats sort of like what it is like for me, Ever since my laptop broke I have had to use the "family" laptop and nothing is the same, half way through doing something there is always either my mother or father asking for the computer to use, and I have to keep everything on a USB stick.

[redsN64]

well I know you want to vent or whatever but I dont know what you expect us to do. I know how you feel though sometimes I will just go to the bathroom or something and when I come back all my stuff is deleted! pisses me of so.

[DumbassDude]

Thats how I feel all the time, there is a seperate room for the computer in my house, but it's also where everyone gets changed and ready, I live with my mam and sister you see. So, during the day or night, they are always barging through gettings things or fixing up their hair, its a real mood killer.

I've always wanted to ask for a computer for my room, but I don't like asking for alot of things, probably because we live in a big house but my mam is paying the house by herself. I have quite abit of money so I might get one soon, until then though, I'm gonna have to continue dealing with the shit your going through.

[Damien]

At 12/19/08 04:12 PM, AlmostDead1 wrote: Thats sort of like what it is like for me, Ever since my laptop broke I have had to use the "family" laptop and nothing is the same, half way through doing something there is always either my mother or father asking for the computer to use, and I have to keep everything on a USB stick.

Haha, well I've solved that problem of mother using the computer. Cuz I'm getting so pro at google I just let her ask whatever and she gets her anwsers in two sec u no?

But indeed...The annoyance of getting out of your concentration.
Here it are more random useless things revolving my 4 year old sister I need to look around for.

I'm looking for some kind of loophole where my life can be back to normal, and I can do something that matters for ME. You know?
The worst part is I can't even talk with my mother, because of her innability to listen or to make someone else talk for a second.

[Alastor]

Lack of concentration? Lapses that involve compulsive thinking? Feeling stifled when trying to express yourself?

The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle

You can find that at any bookstore.

You can thank me later.

[Damien]

At 12/19/08 04:19 PM, Alastor wrote: Lack of concentration? Lapses that involve compulsive thinking? Feeling stifled when trying to express yourself?

The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle

You can find that at any bookstore.

You can thank me later.

Hm, I'll thank you now. I must say I felt really spoken to, and seemed a help. But I'm over the spiritual ideas for now....Not that I have anything against it.
But I need a little more down to earth ideals etc.

....urgh....