Did you even read it? And sry about the wall, forgot about pressing enter a few times.

Imagine this, all of your friends are going to uni / college and you're the one still having to finish highschool before you can attend that like they do. On top of that, you're really depressed and somewhat traumatized by events from your past and still have to keep going on in this world like nothing ever happened. Experiences are supposed to make you a stronger person, well suppose they don't they just confront you with your own painful reality. But still, you gotta keep going to school every morning and do your homework and fight anxiety, all of that but deep inside you know you're just tired of this empty life. Can't feel or enjoy anything anymore, then one of your parents dies of some horrible disease, then they take away child support money. Everything to bring you down and make life even more painful. But you got to keep going to school, keep getting excluded from website's in your country (I don't have English as my first language but I'm trying here) because the world upsets you, you're a misantropist. You love animals but you hate people because they're fundamentally evil and have no altruistic mind or whatsoever. Doesn't matter if you have saved people you met their lives before from suicide, no one will return the offer. You're on your own then, got to keep going to school even if you feel like you would like to get killed and not survive. Every day the same bullshit over and over, a really dark looking future ahead of you and not doing well in school that you actually had to finish already sometime ago but couldn't because you weren't feeling so well psychologically. And the contemplating of; "how do I get out of this society?" don't want to be here, want to be in one of the beautiful locations this world has to offer and be away from humanity, capitalism, the media, the social system and the bullshitters running the world so inadequately that the economy crashes. Go to Alaska and live like the grizzly man or something. Not sure if I'm making much sense here, feeling like I'm intellectually on hold and everyone out there is learning things I have to wait for for years. How depressing. I realize now that I don't belong in the educational system they have created, something happened to me a few years ago. Socially I have in no way the experience of someone my age, been too much alone in my own world. But I'm not sure even if I'll ever graduate from highschool, in my last school I got excluded. The school counselour aka "the bitch" even suggested that I'd go into psychiatry (which was ofcourse a total bullshit-suggestion) but as you can understand by what I'm saying is that school's really not a good place for me. Does anyone else understand what I'm talking about?

I've been here for a year now and this is one of the best website's I came across online. Yeah and there just isn't any other website like it out there.

I Spit on Your Grave, I saw it on tv when I was twelve and never forgot about it. It's like the ultimate revenge movie.

Sorry for some of the bad grammar in there and the misspelling of 'disappointment'. :P

Risen, the RPG from piranha bytes (the creators of the first two "Gothic" games on the PC) isn't worth getting when it comes out where most people here live, it's already out here and I played it. The combat system sucks so much ass and it's incredibly lame because you can only target one enemy at a time and the attack animations are limited. The movement feels slow and annoying, it's actually a huge letdown if you played Gothic 2 for example (and I know many haven't, but it was actually on the same level as Morrowind as an RPG and Fable was very inspired by this game to some degree).

Some Gameplay.

Maybe you're thinking; "this looks pretty good" and yes it does but also notice the sluggish walking which ruins the entire pace game. The combat being slow and broken at time cuz of the one-at-a-time targeting system making it hard to target another enemy when you've already selected one.

The game's a big dissapointment, just that you don't get your expectations up too high because these guys did Gothic I & II.

There's another game coming out by the end of 2009 slash Q1 2010 for the PC and X360, that's
Divinity 2: Ego Draconis and that game's awesomeness. The first Divinity was actually an isometric RPG from back in 2002 when it won many awards and got high scores from website's like Gamespot and was a real sleeperhit. This game rules so much, you can just change into a dragon at the touch of one button, it's amazing how well they integrated it in the gameplay. Check this.

Divinity 2 Amazing Gameplay Footage.

It's from a Belgian game developer and there's just so much attention to detail everywhere in the gameworld, it's a fantasy RPG and all of the effects, like there are people saying it's a mixed bag of 2&3D but they don't get that it's something that makes the game unique graphically. They deliberately chose for this and everything looks so awesome, a story that goes above 50+ hours this is basically the best hardcore RPG of 2009 in my eyes so I thought I'd let you guys know about this awesome game coming out soon so you know what to look out for. And ffs, DON'T get Risen. It's not as bad as Two World's but it's close. :P

... friends you can count on. They're either doing stuff for college or they're just gone to some foreign country for a while, when there aren't any friends there isn't any fun and the entertainment the interweb can give ya only lasts so long when you've seen it all before again and again. So what's there to do really, nothing seems to be enjoyable anymore. Not even videogames, not even this forum (no offence), the stagnant boredom has taken over this world entirely and the grey consumed the originality in things (just look at cartoons now and then look back at the 90's). God I wanna enjoy stuff but there's nothing to enjoy, it's depressing aagh. Even outside, say something, do something... It's unbearable, now give me ideas cuz I'm not in school at the time so there's nothing up much except for continuing learning the flash programme. I'm not sure if this made much sense cuz I'm deadtired, just give me ideas on killing boredom when there's nothing enjoyable left around you.

At 9/22/09 05:37 PM, Sei2ure wrote: Add your friends. Add their friends. etc.
But seriously, why the hell do you care?

I'm picky about who I'm adding, I want lotsa friends but only cool people. Not the chav kinda people, mostly people who do artstuff and all that. Why do I care, I don't know, consumed by boredom I guess.

... Facebook friends? I wondered, do they just randomly add people or is there something else they're doing that makes them get so many people in a short time. I'm not that into Facebook, more into MySpace, but I just like to know this cuz lot's of Facebook friends increases your social status on the site or something among friends. Anyone?

I'll respond to everything in here later, want to beat some people up in Condemned 2 first then we'll talk. Bye.

Got officially diagnosed with AS today, translation; I'm socially fucked. I did an IQ test where I scored 131 on which isn't too bad, on top of that I'm suffering from depression and it's common knowledge in psychology that depression affects your intelligence to a certain degree. I'm now wondering why anyone would want to go on with asperger's syndrome slash intense depression, like why even bother leaving the house if you're socially doomed or go to school if it's fucked anyway. Everything is, life is so dull, girls are sluts who just like being with assholes, don't give about personality same with me if anyone would wanna be with me it's based on appearance and not personality, what's on the inside et cetera. why not just stay in bed and dream about the next life or the past life, reincarnation and exciting things like that, this life IT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT

Care to elaborate what all of this means?

Emily Youcis, she's a mindfuck. =]

Got it for 10 USD's today, missed out on the first one (Criminal Origins I believe?) and so far I'm having fun but damn it's creepy. I'm at this part now where the oil creatures grab you from the ceiling without warning, I'm playing this in a dark room with the LCD screen just next to the window with the moon next to me in my sight. It's so very creepy like I haven't played anything this creepy since Call of Cthulhu: Dark Corners of the Earth, though the combat's feels a bit less dynamic like in Chronicles of Riddick for example. Less fluid in your character's fighting animations but overall pretty decent and very enjoyable leaving the occasional trial & error out of the gameplay when you're not killing things.

I'm very happy with this purchase, the MP mode from what I've seen looks kinda laggy and feels that way in the controls. It's fun for 10 minutes but the game's all about the SP mode for me.

Anyone else plays it, has an opinion about it? I think it's awesome for the price I found it.

this sucks, come on help me out with ideas so I can stop biting my nails fuck.

At 9/7/09 08:47 AM, evan210 wrote: They probably think that if you're depressed you're likely to go on a school shooting, while the people smoking pot would probably be too stoned to aim the gun even if they did.

Spot on, that's it. And seriously, I'm a good person like, petting animals ALL the time (even now). I've just felt like a social reject for a long time while I look like someone who could be popular at school, if I would be more 'into' the world, you know what I mean?

At 9/7/09 08:20 AM, brettmarshall1999 wrote: WTF you shicho

That's 'schizo' stupid, and since when does depression equel schizophrenia? Oh please do tell me since you've clearly majored in psychology, you don't have a clue what my situation is or what's bugging me so if you've got constructive smart to say then shut the fuck up.

At 9/7/09 07:34 AM, Snake-Arsenic wrote: If you want to study or work you shouldn't tell them what you've got or what you're on or you will pretty much always get fucked over.

They asked me if "something was wrong" when I went for the first time to the school when I was at their office, found it hard to look into their eyes and was probably looking absynth-minded. So I just said I took some antidepressants and that I had a rough time behind me. Unfortunatly for me, the principal of the school is an asshole... And I'm not the kind of person who wants to get a job, I wanna do acting or something, make movies. Do what I want to do, that's the bottom line.

At 9/22/08 12:58 AM, DJ-Keen wrote: If you're 19 years old, why are you still concerned with Disney?

FOR FUCK'S SAKE GO LOOK AT SOME TITS.

crudely drawn cartoon tits or..?

And my stupid parent won't let me get homeschooled, wants me to get social interaction and bs how do I convince him? Won't be getting a private teacher that's for sure.

At 9/7/09 06:53 AM, TiredPaperBoy wrote: Kick your anti-whatsits and start smokeing weed.

Where do I find weed? They don't sell it anywhere I live don't know about that, no dealers that I know of.

At 9/7/09 06:49 AM, LynchedJohNNY wrote: Cheer up buddy, there's always home schooling for the crazies.

They wanna make me go to something else, trying to force me to go to some school that psychologically supports you until you're ready to go to a normal public highschool. Wtf? I don't wanna do that, my ex was even in my last school and she's batshit insane. It doesn't make any sense, it's not like I hear voices or anything.

New school won't allow me for being on antidepressants, and it's an artschool. Wtf? I've seen people smoke joints around the park near there and they won't allow me for not being 100% psychologically well cuz of depression? And something else, it's like the last school in the area I haven't been to yet so it was supposed to be my last chance, not sure what to do now... And my parent isn't making it any easier for me.

The art is making me lol so hard. Also people who are getting upset by what they're doing and take this seriously.

Is that Richard D. James?

At 9/2/09 02:03 AM, SeeInTheDark wrote:

At 9/2/09 01:52 AM, LBRocker wrote: Yeah, well, suck my cock Fuckface. I hope you go die in a fucking plane crash you smart mouthing shit.

Angry troll is angry.

Anyways, OP, I'm guessing you've got some sort of deviated septum which is too bad and all, but since it's not a critical surgery, you're going to have to actually do something to obtain money. I don't know why it's so important to have the surgery so soon, but it's highly unlikely you can get so much money in such a short time. And if you don't want to get a job for whatever reason, it's never going to happen.

Retards can hold down jobs in grocery stores. You can get a job, too.

If you have health problems so bad that you can't hold down a job, the government ought to have some program to keep you alive... you live in a German- or Dutch-speaking country? Doesn't matter I guess.

And okay, if I'm going for the all-scenarios dichotomous key here, if you don't live in any country that provides for those who are unable to work due to health problems, then you are simply one of the losers in the great drama of humanity, and you will never get the rhinoplasty.

Actually I think his stupidity is mildly entertaining and it's enjoyable to watch him make a fool out of himself. And the job part, well, anxiety stuff that I have my reasons for. And yes, I live in one of the countries you mentioned and normally it's covered but it's because of some other thing that's covered, it's really stupid but they won't provide the required money now. I don't have the patience or courage to get a job, feeling too down, depression and so on. Can't even go to school right now because of the anxiety stuff, let alone get somewhere in time every day of the effin week. The rhinoplasty I kinda need cuz the breathing gets difficult sometimes. How about loaning money at a bank and repaying it monthly, that an option?

At 9/2/09 01:31 AM, NaziiNinja wrote:

At 9/2/09 01:19 AM, WolvenKind wrote: It's a, not sure how you say it in English, rhinoplasty? I've read it gets covered in other countries but not where I live. And I get bored at that sorta thing too quickly and personal stuff I can't mention here.

why are you getting a nose job

Breathing difficulties, I've read it gets covered in other countries. It's for health reasons and I don't have that kinda money right now.

At 9/2/09 01:08 AM, SeeInTheDark wrote: Why do you need so much money so quickly and so desperately?
And why is a job out of the question, even if you could get that much money somehow at a job?

I have breathing difficulties and where I live insurance isn't covering it, I intend on getting this surgery around my next birthday. It's a, not sure how you say it in English, rhinoplasty? I've read it gets covered in other countries but not where I live. And I get bored at that sorta thing too quickly and personal stuff I can't mention here.

At 9/2/09 01:06 AM, estrago1 wrote: Well, I'm not sure what to do to raise money. I had an idea like that, I wouldn't be on this site. Your only options are get a job or sell some of your stuff. Or you could steal. Go from house to house with a couple of lockpicks, a sack, and some black clothes and steal from your neighbors.

Become a master thief like Garrett from "Thief", sleep at day and live by night. I really like this idea and even if I'd sell my own stuff I wouldn't reach 5000 I think, that is the stuff that I DO want to sell.

Before June 1 2010, how am I going to do it? (about 8000 USD)

Ideas? And don't say "get a job", it's very important I have the money by then and my dad won't give that much so plz tell me how to cuz it's very important for me and the future. thx