At 11/25/09 11:11 PM, Magic-babe wrote:
At 11/25/09 11:08 PM, Rallard wrote:
Well, that's your problem right there. Get some friends that are actually friends... not people who mooch off you or whatever.
I actually hated the friends I had in high school. It wasn't until after graduation that I got friends I could actually relate to, and not want to punch in the face every day (one of my "friends" in high school hated me so much that he cried... it was hard not to laugh, lol).
It's difficult because everyone in my school is the same. Everyone has the same style, same attitude, same friends. It's strange. Whatever happened to the appreciation of being different and standing out? I'd prefer to not fit in with people, because I don't want to end up in the same routine as everyone in this town.
We are so similar almost, My friends always ask me for shit like " what is this question ", You can be nice and tell them, but are they learning anything? No, they aren't, but what makes me mad is when someone has asked half the questions without doing any work, asking everyone in the room, but people keep telling him/her what they are, because hes the star player or girl with big breasts, They ask nicely, like they are so your friend and all, you say no and they get pissed at you for no fucking reason, Seriously?, What The Fuck.
I live in a town of probably 400, They're about 60 high school students, and it's taken me a long time to figure out they are all pretty much worthless, they're are very few who I would waste a minute of my time with, I have gone through without even having a girlfriend, even a simple kiss, hey newgrounds, im a virgin, yay, And I'm actually thankfull for that, Because people here think it's so cool to smoke pot and have sex " I would totally bang that " I hate people who tel me to look at girls titties, or asses, Are you that fucking stupid?, Not a single girl here looks at personality, We had a new guy come here this year, a total dick, he's been through half the girls already, they fall in love with his looks, notice hes a complete dick hole, and leaves him because they got used, and this has created a lot of bullshit, I've been told by so many that its only about personality, but oh no, they lie I have felt alone here for most of my life, I have over-protective parents, I have only been outside of this town when my mom makes me fucking go shopping with her...
As for not fitting in, It is cool to me, It really is, Be yourself, like the music you like, wear what you want, be yourself, someone will see it, and when they finally do then you will finally make a real friend, maybe more you know?, I'm still waiting for someone to accept me, It's just hard knowing it will happen one day, I fear it will not... Someday I won't be told " I just want to be friends ", This has become my most hated phrase, I've gone through the few here that aren't following the usual society, but none of them accept me, this is my depression, To think i'll never find someone, It's been a new depressive I've had to deal with, It used to be that I really had no friends ( I have about 3 now woo.. ), and many other problems im not going into right now...
Just feel that you are not alone, they're still people who give a shit, not just people who will say " you will find someone soon, or cheer up bro, or have a smoke, drink this, shoot this, take this " this is all bullshit people say when they don't give a shit.