At 7/31/09 12:32 AM, jackripperz wrote:
To Twone: You say you almost broke down at work? You should. Not at work though. I mean, let it go. Cry. But after you're done, don't get caught up in it. Let your emotions flow like a river. Don't hold it in. In the end, it'll mix with other emotions and explode like a water dam.
I did, trust me. I kind of am right now.
Crying is not a sign of weakness. To be able to cry is what most can't do. Like I said, cry and let the emotions out. But don't get caught up in it.
I try not to. I'm already hanging out with my brothers and friends and still having fun in my darkest of times.
Also, I think she's just afraid of two things.
1)You going to college means a lot of things. Can she really trust you?
She always said she loved me no matter what. I wouldn't cheat on her, and I don't think she realized that. I can't blame this all on her, though, this is how she feels.
2)Can she trust herself when you're not there with her?
She's still in high school and has her biggest year yet. She shouldn't waste it constantly worrying about me. So I give her credit for that.
I think she realizes that long distance relationships are really fucking hard. Her sister and her boyfriend of five years broke up just a few days before us because she's moving to Germany for grad school and he still has one year at Penn State. They dated all throughout high school and then one went to Johns Hopkins in Maryland and the other went to Penn State. All she did was focus on him instead of her college experience. I think that's what my (ex)girlfriend wanted for me, too.
Also, an older brother of mine had a problem with this, too. He wasn't seeing this girl for nearly as long, but she told him she couldn't do it anymore. She broke up with him via text. He felt like shit because he was being cheated by her. Luckily, he found someone in college that he couldn't be happier with.
Okay, well that's all I think. If I'm wrong, then I'll learn from it. If I'm right, then I'll have a beer.
Well you've helped me realize a lot about us and my life. I should be sad, but it shouldn't hinder whatever else I have to do. Go have a beer.