At 5/14/09 12:49 AM, JackFox wrote:
At 5/14/09 12:40 AM, Skilla wrote:
This worked for you, but unfortunately I'm a pro-procrastinator and I'd just never get to college. I'd figure well I got money now this is cool, and I'd end up never going.
Another alternative for me was trying to go to a decent school than work my way to a much better school. I have high hopes and I understand this, but I've let myself down to long and my uncaring attitude needs to turn around.
I'm in an alternative school inside of a regular high school. All my credits count for full grade credits and no college will ever know I'm there just that I'm in my normal school, I got my first credit 2 months ago and it was a A so I'm hoping to get that momentum going.
I haven't had anything higher than a F since a year ago, and nothing higher than an D in 2 years. So, I was almost in tears when I saw this mere single A boosting my GPA from .00 to a .373, I know it's weird my school A B C D isn't 4.0 3.0 2.0 1.0, A+ is 4.0 A is 3.73.
I'm going to see if I just get them to let me drop 9th grade and retake it that I will lose those 4 .0's in my record. If that was allowable it would be a God send.
Trust me, I've seen this shit before and it doesn't end pretty most of the time.
I have a cousin who is 17 and is still a Freshmanz because she's a fucking idiot.
I'll tell you right now; You're still a young age, pull your shit together and get those grades up. When you get that taken care of. Wait a year. You don't even have to work often. 3 times a week, etc.
After that, get into a community college (average of 2.00 GPA needed for most community colleges that I know of.)
Although I really do need more information to really get an idea where you are in life. Your job, your situation with family, shit like that. But this was always my fall-back plan in case I fuck up.
My family loves, me the schooling I go to gives me full high-school credits. I wont be looked at like I'm going to an alternative school because the classes I take are based on the high-school my schools ins curriculum and I have there certified teachers.
They have me planned out next year to get all the needed credits so that when I'm dismissed back to the high school I would be an 11th grade student.
As I am right now, if I keep going with things I could get into a much better school than a community college. Many kids from my highschool go to Pennstate I could probably get accepted there, my attitude toward schooling got a lot better.
I really need to just try to find away to erase what happened at the beginning of this year for a fresh start, and than I should be ready to go. I'm hoping to end this year with 3.5 credits and I should my grades are probably going to be something like A A A B-, I'm doing well.
It's just that I'm so lost with what to do, so much happened to me so fast. It hit me like a speeding train, everything went from 0-60 in no time. Drugs and Alcohol took a toll on me, and everything was wrong.
I hit the brakes, I have a lot of problems that I have to work with though that don't make anything easier, but I learned that there no excuse. I don't try to excuse them anymore, so I've defeated them. It seems the man doesn't like me and I love sticking it to him, he sticks it to me hard and I try to stick it back.
But, lately I figured the best way to stick it back is to one up him per-say and do something he say I could never do. I've been told I'm going no where a lot and my parents always told me everyones after you, but I want you to the show them up.
I stopped the drugs haven't done any in 5 months now maybe a little longer, I haven't drank in even longer. I do regularly smoke pot, but that is simply a blessing from the angels I don't consider it to be bad at all and that's coming from a 15 year old who had a serious addiction to pills and alcohol including benzo's, oxycodone, barbituates, morphines, and anything with a % of alc. I used to wake up in the morning and down the hatchet would go a regular dose of hydrocodones, fuoricets, percocets, or xanax and valiums.
I was that guy that everyone forgot about, and missed to drug loss at the age of 15. I got treatment though, and I'm better now. But everyday the thought haunts me every pill I get handed, is like the most beautiful decision ever made it could be my best-friend or my most persistent enemy.
Some people are fine with doing pills here a shot there that's not enough for me one isn't enough. I've been psychologically evaluated and they determined where a normal human stops at times where they need to think my mind says go. It's common with people with adhd and add they tested this by simulating a car crash. Where someone with a normal brain would slam the brakes someone with add/adhd would slam the gas.
You gave me great advice, and the reason you know that is 'cause I rambled on for ever. Thank you very much.