I literally can't remember what it feels like much. Is not that there's anything wrong with my personal life, or at least not to the extent that I should be unhappy. I have a great life, really. Outstanding compared to the lives of so many other people.
It's just the state of the world. I feel like I can never be happy again. The injustices, the stupidity, the sickening actions of other humans. (Oddly the less extreme ones disgust me more, I guess I've already numbed out to the really extreme ones.)
So yeah, I'm 16, and I only have temporary moments of feeling good, not happy. After a fun activity or no-thought meditation (the best stress coping method ever), I guess I feel happy in a wierd empty way, but then when I recover the information floating around in my subconcious I feel cynical again. I'll never recover the emotional state of mind when I was a kid, which was fricking amazing. And there's too much bad, it just seems to spoil the good.
(To the majority of NG users) So for the love of God, gtfo of Newgrounds if you're a regular, grow a fucking brain, get a job that will improve the state of the world as much as possible. It's ignorant idiots, who arre much happier than intelligent people, who are also the source of so many problems, even if they don't realize it.