It's really bad. She's only 28 but she feels like she's about to die and panics at the thought of wasting life. Which is silly, she's accomplished more in 28 years than most could in a life. She's gotten married, found a job with the UN, got a law degree, travelled around europe and the middle east.
Yet she feels like she hasn't accomplished anything. Our dad is about 66, and he's a constant reminder of death to her and me. I'm not really as freaked out as she is, but i have nightmares of him dying, because i know that with how he has a diabetes, and since i plan to be living in the house for awhile and i'm the one who spends the most time with him, i can't see him living past 15 years. And i know my mom plans on leaving back to her home country next year, and will only come back every few months. It'll just be me and him.
So the fact of the matter is....i'm the one who is going to find his body. That is if he's at home. I KNOW that is creepy and morbid to think of. But most people don't think about the fact that someday they'll have to deal with a loved one dying or dead, and because my dad is a old parent im going to have to deal with it a lot sooner, i can't just run away to other country and pretend it won't happen like my sister.
And most of you probably have parents in their 30s and 40s so it's something you don't really find the need to process. But i'm seeing him age, and i'm panicing, i'm close to him and i don't know what to do without him, no one else talks to me in my family.
I can already see it happening, that my mom won't be here, and i'll be in the house alone with him, just like now, and it'll be my responsibility to call the ambulance, and wait. I'm so sorrry for the drama, but this has been driving me insane, seeing him take so much medicine, and looking older by the day it's horrible. So i want to know did any of you have to deal with someone really close die? or dying? how did you deal with it or come to terms with it?