my fears of not going to my own expectations set by myself, i am 13, and i planned to have had atleast 3 girlfriends by now, and my first broke up with me last wednesday,
i also planned, to have a steady friendship set with a set of differently skilled and oriented people, i know a guy i nicknamed texas toast cause he likes toast and has a wierd accent, a satanic worshipper, a fatass who plays world of warcraft, and a half gay guy, half straight guy (not bisexual.) who says "oohohoh" every time i say "snake", man in a box", "or thick, sticky, white liquids." not too many different people.
and i also expected to be able to read about 500 pages an hour by now, my top is 510 pages in 4 hours, with small letterring. dream not yet met sadly.
all i want to do in life is be happy, have a good lover, be nice to everyone, gain the knowledge of the universe, have lots of friends, and be able to support a family, all atleast before age 25. by the way my life is going currently, this is all highly unlikely, only one of those dreams is in, and thats be nice to everyone i can. its saddening as i look at my collected dreams......... damn, and notice how they may never come true....
the worst fear? the fear of not living up to expectations, it can branch into many different fears if one small goal isnt met....... so sad. i hate my fear.i hate it with every fber and hair of my body.