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At 11/18/13 01:43 PM, MrSoxfan wrote: People find out the high-five was invented by this guy?

nothing

Yeah it is pretty bad.

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Probably be doing more of a service if you signed the petition...
http://www.change.org/petitions/google-change-the-youtube-comment-section-back-to-its-original-form

but hell maybe im wrong.... googles too big of a company to give a shit. Regardless of google plus, people will still use youtube. So google wins already i guess.

OMG I FIGURED IT ALL OUT!!!! I KNOW WHY IM SAD: Stonehenge

27% kinky 28% freaky

At 10/19/13 03:04 PM, Kwing wrote:

At 10/18/13 10:48 PM, ianross wrote: This is true... now I need to figure out why. I do feel there is something stopping me from speaking openly even to the closest of my friends.

Didn't you just say what was stopping you? You don't feel as if your problems are 'important enough'. My suggestion is that you talk to whoever it is that you feel most supported by, regardless of whether or not you feel like you can relate to them.

No I think that me not feeling comfortable talking to my friends is a separate issue. Thanks for the suggestion though, I have actually already done just that a couple hours ago and I was rather surprised how supportive she was about everything.

At 10/19/13 12:32 PM, yiffinmymouth wrote: it's called depression

Nope. You should have read the last couple of posts.

At 10/18/13 06:45 PM, Kwing wrote: It's also possible that you feel some kind of barrier between yourself and the people you socialize with, which is why you haven't brought this problem up with anyone thus far. Again, you haven't really said much about it so I don't know.

This is true... now I need to figure out why. I do feel there is something stopping me from speaking openly even to the closest of my friends.

OH GOD I WOULD NEVER DARE TO TAKE MEDS!!! Wouldn't EVER consider killing myself anyway. Like that one guy said I'm not sick but I'm not well.

Now since I made this post I've made a lot of progress assessing my issue. I think part of it is that I have major tunnel vision (but not really in bad way). I used to be completely focused on my goals and where I wanted to go with my life. All I could see was anything that could help me reach my goals or anything that could potentially stop me. Everything else was secondary. Though for some reason, my incredible focus just went in the wrong direction and my focus was on someone else. This brought me down because it was such a trivial thing for my mind compared to what my view of the world. It's as if I went from focusing on one of Georges Seurat's paintings and pondering all the ways it can be interpreted, to focusing on single boring dot.

On top of all that, there is another issue. Although I am socially accepted, I have lots of friends, and people who love me, I feel alone. This is because I don't have anyone like me in my life. No one I can fully relate, therefore no one who can fully relate to me. This is something I can't do anything about, and will just have to learn to deal with.

Third, I believe I was in denial. You guys helped me to see that, and has already been remedied. I now am working on a plan to break away from this state of being. This is as low as I have been emotionally I the past two years, can only go uphill from here.

At 10/16/13 11:45 PM, SpankyG wrote: So here's what I do, I found a life passion/ outlet: Hip-Hop. It gives me the opportunity to go and say what I think and feel without worrying about what other people say. I suggest that you find something expressive that you love to do and do it. And find the courage to do something that can bring fire into your spirit. Stay strong bro.

I'll try to find something. You're just about spot on. Maybe I just need a new creative outlet. Thanks for actually taking your time to read the whole thing.

At 10/16/13 11:21 PM, MiloBased wrote: ianross don't cry because you a little fag boy
Go make a mixtape and mope over every song
Keep recording girlfriends bet you still jack off with your butt-cheeks out listening to mood music

I think you forgot to read it.

At 10/16/13 10:45 PM, SCTE3 wrote: Another thing that could help is keeping a diary/journal to write down thoughts for the day.

Yeah I've been doing that, I think it helps.

Natick is right though, usually not a good idea to post these kind of things on the forums.

Like I said, you would probably recognize my other accounts, just don't want to ruin my rep so i'm trying to be a bit more anonymous.

At 10/16/13 10:38 PM, Natick wrote: i think you just made a big mistake by confessing all of this in your first post here

Oh yeah forgot to mention this but this is an old account. Ive been an active member here for years just didn't want to say anything on my more known account.

At 10/16/13 10:35 PM, Sekhem wrote:
damn son

did you have to expose yourself in the first post

YES 0_0

I don't know if sad is the right word exactly, more like I feel something is missing, or a lingering feeling that something is just not right.

I don't have any reason to be sad. I'm varsity at every sport I play, I have the highest classes in my school, I excel in the arts more than most, I'm in all the honors societies my school has available, and I take part in student council and ambassadors club. Hell one of my math teachers thinks I'm a genius. Now you may think I sound like a complete nerd, but socially I'm fine and am friends with almost everybody. I don't have many enemies and I have an entourage of girls (not always the prettiest but an entourage nonetheless). I get invited to every party. One could even say I'm a virgin by choice, even though I wouldn't say I'm very attractive (but not unattractive, per say).

Emotionally I would consider myself very stable, at least on the outside. I like to maintain a calm, or "chill", semblance. Nothing gets to me (except spiders... my kryptonite), I don't become afraid, fear has no purpose. As FDR once said "there is nothing to fear but fear itself". When others are frightened, I can just smile. Part of this I think comes from the rough relationship between my parents, and other past experiences, that made me emotionally bulletproof.

Now at this point you probably think I'm just here to brag, I'm not. Recently, I've been finding that I have this empty feeling. A void somewhere in my life that has been sucking away any motivation or desire to progress through life, regardless of how fantastic it may be. Problem is, I have no idea what to do.
I never let this sort of stuff in the way. This is partly why I say I'm not sad, because I don't feel sadness. I don't want to cry, I don't want to kill myself, I don't even feel choked up about anything at all, and most of all I don't want the pity of others.

This "sadness" (for lack of better words) has been sending me (and my esteem) in a downward spiral into the abyss. I used to be so motivated, feeling as though I had no limits to what I could do. I felt powerful (and perhaps a bit too much egotistical at times). I thought if I worked hard enough and stayed ambitious, I could conquer the world... literally. Now, because of this sadness, I have not been doing my homework, have not been willing to stay organized, I feel I have lost all motivation, my self esteem has been low, and I have been procrastinating on everything. I haven't even been making time for things I want to do, like improving my c++ coding abilities, or my jazz piano. I will spend hours just sitting and starring at the wall, feeling drained... empty.

I have not been able to talk to anybody about this. I don't want to burden my friends with my problems, since I hate hearing people vent myself. My family would make a bigger deal out of this than they should, and they don't need any more nonsense added to the chaos of their lives.

Now a few things that could potentially be additives to my current state would be my parents divorce, though this is something I've been anticipating for about 6-8 years. I broke up with my last girlfriend a couple months ago because I did not want to pursue a long distance relationship (she moved). I live in the middle of nowhere. And last but not least, there is this girl I like, we are good friends, and she knows I like her, but she doesn't want to date, and also has a slight crush on somebody else, which I'm completely okay with (at least I tell myself that)........ #runonsentence

I am lost and I need help. I don't want any spiritual answers, my religious beliefs are something I keep to myself and don't need advice about. I've never asked for help wit this sort of thing before, in fact I've never said anything until now. Please help, and thank you for reading the whole thing if you did, and spending your time to respond if you choose to do so. I know the newgrounds community has been able to assist in every crisis I have had.

My apologies for typos.