At 1/25/06 01:50 AM, wan_tan_soup14 wrote:
I've been like this for a damn long time. Well, in comparison to most people facing depression, probably not very long. i'm just sick and tired of this shit. I can't keep feeling like shit every day. feeling alone all the time. I HATE it. it's like i missed out on life and went straight to hell, or purgatory, or some shit like that. when does it end? When?!
It ends when you want it to. I felt like I was depressed and like life was pointless for upwards of 2 years twice in my life. The first time I felt better by befriending better people, the second time it was by gathering the self-esteem necessary to reach out to my current girlfriend. You just keep going, and eventually things get better because you just stop the shit.
I dunno, with all this shit happening it makes me wonder whether I should turn to God or something. I was rigid on my descision about religion before, but now I dunno. I'll take any sort of comfort at this point.
Whatever works. Some find comfort in social efforts, some with God, some with drug use, etc. There's extremes for every comfort though, so take those into consideration before attempting to self-medicate (whether physically, emotionally, socially, spiritually, or mentally).
Hey, thanks for the back up. I appreciate it.
For every asshole willing to tell you that you are indeed the piece of shit you feel like, there's someone else willing to offer that isn't true.
If, nothing else, you continue and do well just to spite those nay-sayers.
It's not emo or whatever other shit, it's just how things can be. Not everybody shares everyone else's experiences, feelings, reactions, or whatever else. Sometimes people forget that.