Hoping I can post here.
Well, my problem goes a while back. Almost all my life people have been fucking with me just to harm me, and I never understood why. Probably because I was the quiet kid, but nonetheless, I'd do nothing and still be bullied.
Nowadays I don't have that problem, I stand up for myself and no one really tries anything. The problem now is disrespect. I don't talk about people, and when I do it's a nice version of the truth from what I've seen them do. I never mess with people in a joking way unless it's a really close friend because I know it bothers most of my peers. Everyone thinks of me as nice and quiet. Nowadays though, it seems some people that I thought of as friends are changing to the point where they aren't themselves anymore, and they challenge whatever authority I have over the groups I hang out with.
Today I assaulted a kid who was messing with me in a way that I thought was completely against any moral code. He's been an asshole all year, but this time was too far. My girl broke up with me yesterday, but before that he'd been joking that he'd laugh if she broke up with me soon. So, after yesterday I put 2 and 2 together and found out that he knew before hand, and he was just trying to fuck with me. So the first time I saw him in class I just went up to him and started punching him. Obviously I was suspended, got a lecture, etc. My parents are ok with it because I told them exactly what was going to happen. (honesty is the best policy to them, etc)
Really, I just don't know what to do about people anymore. I feel like I don't belong there with any of those people, but I have friends in every little group and clique. I'll be going into the Army anyways after high school, so I don't even know if I should care about them or not. But until then, the school years are increasingly slow and torturous, the teachers being dicks and the students seemingly becoming increasingly retarded.
Also my sister is back with her boyfriend that tried to have her jumped, and he's the one that got her hooked on meth. She was on weed, coke, and alcohol before, and my parents have kicked her out about 5 times. Her boyfriend is in jail and is facing at least 6 months (thank fucking god) for being a complete moron and being arrested in a hilarious sequence of bad choices.
Problem with my sister is, that after high school, she just completely lost all functional common sense, at all. She left her fiance (my almost brother in law brother, he's cool) and her child with no warning, went to her first boyfriend, got hooked, etc. And I completely lost all respect towards her. I've been telling my family that I think we should make her change her last name. I do not consider her family in any way with the things she's done to us and in general. This is also the first time in my life that I've considered hitting a woman.
I've also gotten the "Let's just be friends" bullshit in 3 different ways by 3 different girls who came to me saying they liked me, not the other way around. shit sux.
I guess if this is a bad post you can ask a mod to delete it, I don't mind. Just hoping I could get some secondary opinions on my situations.
