Okie dokie. . .
First relationship im 21 she is 24.
We just seperated today beacuase of some bullshit, I dont even really know why she left but she did. Her DOC (Drug Of Choice) is cocaine and today when she left she called this dude that deals and she went over there to go chill and shit, i got HEATED not only because she was leaving but because of the person she decided to leave with. A couple weeks back she almost cheated on me with her X BF, out of malice towards him because he got married to a woman 2 months after they seperated. She has expressed to me that she would like to bring other people into our sex life both male and female, and I have made it very VERY clear that I have no problem bringin a chick in but no dudes, I just cant handle that.
Blah blah. To make a long story short Im wondering if she worth taking back if she wants to come back. I feel so paranoid that I cant let her go and do her own thing because she might cheat on me with some dude. She is a drug addict Alcoholic but I do love her, but im afraid that she will sell her body for drugs :( And I really cant stand the thought of her fuckin some other dude. And if she does cheat on me then I will never fucking know, and I will always be paranoid about that wtf can I do? Im really confused right now, dont know what the fuck to think dont know what the fuck she is doing dont know who is around her i just dont fuckin know shit. comments or suggestions?