Some of you may have seen my posts before, and some of you may actually have opinions of me. But I'll thank you to read this through- and take it for what it is worth. If you are one to reply/post jokingly, I plead to you to not.

Dear all,

Wow, what a life. For good reasons or not, we are here. We can choose to stay here and make life happy for others, or just for the well being of ourselves. With this, you may see people who can make the masses happy- be it bands, atheletes, writers, or a celebrity.

I myself, have given my time on this planet to a bigger cause. A larger meaning than worthless self satisfaction. I met Julia through someone I knew from a summer camp. I approached her after my first day of school- and we chatted until our busses needed to leave. I went home, did my homework, and did some guitar work. Little did I know that Julia would change my meaning for living. We had everything in common with eachother. Musical taste, religion, beliefs, everything.

Through our talking from September to December, I had learned of her parents brutal divorce, and her several attempts at taking her own life. Once, she had taken 40 tyenols on December 31st, 2005, not expecting to wake up in the morning. Yet she did, miraculously, and faced another hard year.

The summer came for her- and she had been nocturnal for 2 months. Sleeping till dark, going to bed at night. She hated to see the sun, and for some reason, basked in her suffocating negativity. The night came where she bashed her own skull into a wall 12 times- and passed out. She woke up the next morning.

To begin schooling again she had to break her nocturnal lifestyle and start sleeping on normal terms. She then went to school, and met me. On October 27th, she kissed me at my house before a dance- I had been her first. She had been afraid to show any kinds of affection to anyone- at the risk of feeling the sense of disaster her mom felt over her divorce.

We had been friends since september, and all through the months the argument with myself constantly plagued my mind- is this teen love brought on by hormones? Is this right? Is this wrong?

New Years Eve came- and we had gone to Worcester, MA, to celebrate at First Nights, a cultural fair. Her mom and her boyfriend had let us go to a band concert down the street from the center of the festivities.

The show was amazing- but something was plaguing her mind, I could tell. There was a park outside, and I asked her if she wanted to leave and sit down- she jumped at the offer. So we then walked outside, and found a seat on the cold steel benches.

She had told me that she did not expect to live until 2007- and that she was not meant to live. I tried to tell her- I insisted- that she must wait for the good. Life will not always be perfect. She cried and sobbed on my shoulder in the freezing park. I then swore to her that because of her qualities she had shown me in the past months, I would be her partner as long as I could, and make sure she graces this planet with her beauty and cleverness. She agreed- and we sat in that park until the clock tower struck 12.

So yes readers, I have decided to live around this amazing young woman. Some of you may thing it is wrong. Some of you may think different. But I, myself- think it is the greatest thing I can do in this petty universe.

I now take my leave Newgrounds- may you take this as advice, or may you ignore it. I need not be around these kind of people anymore- I need not be around the ever common insensitivity anymore. I will give my life to her- and if anything happens between us- I will not be needed here- for no one will ever take her place in my lifetime, and I will not be in the place of anyone elses. This may not be right- but it certainly doesn't feel wrong.

Live long, live right, and god damnit, live peacefully.

My Best Regards,

"The Brianator"

Wow. Thats pretty cool. I also have the same thing. I get really nifty dreams whenever I feel like sleeping on the floor.

Wait- what kinda music do you produce?

At 1/15/07 12:03 AM, squadus2 wrote: *has wet dream during school*

Ouch. Now THATS the worst place to have one.

At 1/14/07 01:13 AM, Twerpo wrote: I can pretty much appreciate any music as long as it sounds good and isn't classical. :P

Well dude, thats the stuff you should be appreciating the most!

Well, are you gunna put out a comic about it?

At 1/14/07 10:32 PM, TheBeagle wrote:

At 1/14/07 03:56 PM, WilliWowza wrote: Sorry I am not gay.

Second that.

Metal sucks, get over it.

Because we all agree with what you say.

At 1/14/07 03:34 PM, Sidorio wrote: "No, he plays cricket for England but I was too embaressed to say."

Ouch!

I would join it in a second man.

That's deep man.

At 12/31/06 12:43 AM, a-guy-with-no-life wrote: I point them out and I was later visited again to say she is in custody. Wow. That was a weird day.

Dontcha love when you suddenly become part of something important against your will? :-D

At 1/14/07 06:51 PM, bigbadron wrote:

At 1/14/07 06:36 PM, thelordofcheese wrote: You are far too dumb to talk.
Don't you know generalizations based on unrelated issues are almost always wrong?

don't you know that 15 is a very confusing time in a child's life? decisions made at that point in life are hardly ever the final choice.

Very true Ron- very true. But things like religion are pretty hard to take back once you've let them go, I have been told by older born-again Christians.

Don't ask how I became friends with them.

Well, when I was playing Duke Nukem when I was 7(GREAT time to be playing dn) one of those cyclops bugs crawled on me and I didn't see it coming. Scared the shit out of me.

But lately, no. Not really.

I don't think the lockdown on names is done yet. Just go to "Modify personal profile" and I think it should be there.

At 1/15/07 01:29 AM, StevenFowler wrote:

At 1/15/07 01:28 AM, Sir-S-Of-ROFL wrote:

At 1/15/07 01:26 AM, JamesRodrick wrote: Neat.

Let's have hot cyb0rz now.

Second'ed

Thirded

Eek. Both of you should change towns.

At 1/15/07 01:51 AM, Silent-G wrote:

At 1/15/07 01:50 AM, CaptainPeepers wrote: Quick, make a text file out of this and then masturbate to it!

oh yeah, because stories about drug use are so arousing!

Oh. Babeh. Yeah.

...get a match in there and you're golden, buddy.

At 1/15/07 01:42 AM, Erathun wrote: Ive been to a few of them including the one in orlando. I dont think they are anything special. Over priced tourist traps.

Nothing special? Look at the history, bud. And, I bought a tshirt there for 12 dollars, and it wears great. I wear XL. I think its a good price man. Yes, the food was expensive, but god damn it was worth it.

I didn't see anything from Iron Maiden there, sadly. I did see, however, a drum played by Ringo Starr, and a high tom signed by Keith Moon.

Come on now. No body's ever been to a HRC?

At 1/15/07 01:03 AM, Snakemaster-13 wrote:

You don't piss in a wet dream, dumbass. You cum.

Holy shit, was that blunt.

At 1/14/07 11:31 PM, 590361003 wrote:

discuss

Well, for starters, I like em'. I'm not German, and I'm not transexual. Rethink your generalizations.

On second thought, just don't generalize.

At 1/15/07 12:27 AM, Ecke wrote: Gendo is on here all the time

Yeah, he keeps things interesting.

Wow... just wow. Not only was the food good, I've seen a lot of history tonight.

1. Jagstang smashed by Kurt Cobain, my girlfriend cried. Kurt saved her life in a way. She was going to take 20 pills of tyenol pmabout a year ago, but she decided to keep sitting in her bed listening to Polly, because of the joy it gave her.

2. The hat worn by Stevie Ray Vaughan on the In Step album. Seeing this hurt me- he tried so hard to end the gross life he was leading. And just as he defeated his biggest demon he ever faced, he came out with this album, and died within a year later.

3. A paper with a song Jimi Hendrix was working on before he died. It was untitled ," Voices In The Wind". It had the whole song layed out- even with a few chord names on it for ideas. It is a shame he couldn't stay a little longer and keep giving us his amazing music to enjoy.

That's pretty much it. My suggestion? If you are into rock and roll, go to the closest Hard Rock Cafe. You will NOT regret it.

At 1/14/07 02:21 PM, CaptainPeepers wrote:

At 1/14/07 04:00 AM, Brianator wrote:

At 1/14/07 02:51 AM, Wonko-the-Sane wrote: Anyone out of Junior High should be able to figure all of that out by themselves.

You would be very surprised.

He's right. There is an amazing number of stupid people in the world.

Well, just because they don't come to the conclusions I have, doesn't mean they're stupid.

I found Now 15 in my drawer today.

Pretty much self-explanatory.

I also do not get why everyone likes Def Leppard.

Standing in the crowd during Horse The Band at the Palladium in Worcester.

At 1/14/07 01:22 PM, Saki2me wrote: Five things I've learned!!

1.Don't talk shit about people because they are around when you don't even know it.I called this girl an annoying slut and she was RIGHT behind me.

That makes sense.

2.don't flip off your teacher.For obvious reasons

...Yeah. Don't do that. They teach you. They're the ones that get you into the world.

3.Don't tell your family you want a tattoo.

Eh, depends who your parents are.

4. Don't tell your parents that you're going on a date.

Same as 3.

5. If you're the youngest in the family try not to look TOO good in front of your siblings in case of over protectiveness.

Eh. My problem with that, being the middle child in a family of 3, my older brother seems to have the obsession that since hes older than me, he is more intelligent and stronger. He really hasn't learned much due to too much video games. I am 15, he is 17. I am 2 inches taller than him.

yup that's all i need to get through life.

Different strokes for different folks.

Shit! That looks pretty real.