Alright I can't take it any more. I'm going to post a very large and detailed account of my life and I would be very thankful for any suggestions any of you can make.
About 5 months ago I went into my first really serious relationship (I'm 16 for the record, me and Girl A as she will now be known as started going out on my birthday). Things were going great, I felt better than ever and stuff was good. I lost my virginity with her, which I wasn't too bothered about and I'm still not to this day. However, we went to about 4 parties all in all, and every time it was horrific.
She got extremely drunk every time and made me feel like shit. Things came to a head at the fourth party. She was smashed that badly that she couldn't move. I've never been drunk and don't plan to, I don't need to be drunk to have a good time. Anyway, I got her phone and rang her Nan, asking what was the best plan. Her Nan said she'd come and pick her up.
Why did I ring? Because I'm not looking after her for the fourth party in a row, I wanted some time with my mates and I wanted to have a good time with the other sober people. I told Girl A, and at this news she flipped. She yelled at me, said I ruined her life, I'm a dick, you know, the works. I eventually left early with my friends and that was it. The next day I called her and ended it. I'd never ended a relationship before, let alone my first serious one. It effected me tremendously. I still stand that it was a valid decision, but since then I've not been happy and things have gone downhill.
I'm telling you this because it was a run up to my next person, Girl B. Girl A made me lose contact with all of my friends. She isolated me from the others, and I was so blind, so STUPID to be lured away from them. Girl B I got close to again, and eventually fell for her and she "fell" for me. I was invited over, but the day before she said she liked me, would do anything, but not a relationship because of the holidays. Still thinking this over I went to her house.
We talked for ages, then started making out. This was fine, it happened at the after party at prom, but this was as far as I thought she'd go. We made out more and then went upstairs to her room. It ended up that my hand was down her pants and visa-versa. She pushed my hand down there, I just followed her lead, I never once pushed it.
Her brother came home and I was kicked out, which was fine. We texted TWICE after this, then she blanked me. The next day she was due to go on holiday, we texted a lot, then she said she ran out of credit and went on holiday. I texted her a few days into her holiday and she texted me back, but said she was out of signal? Girl B I've known for five years and she's never been like this. We then didn't speak for two weeks, until today.
She came back today and my friends told me I should ask what the fuck is going on. I texted her. The response was; I still like you, but don't want a relationship. Its now changed from not jsut because of the holidays, but because she doesn't want a relationship with me. What am I supposed to do now? I feel like shit to be honest, Girl B was there for me after A and she made me feel great and happy again, now I'm back to where I started and feel like crap.
Suggestions? Thoughts? Did I go wrong somewhere?