121 Forum Posts by "BadCity"
I decided to try ecstasy for the first time a few weeks ago. It's something I had always wanted to try and it just happened to come to me in a perfect opportunity. This was good stuff too, damn near pure ecstasy cut with just a little coke. The effects were very interesting to me. Lights and touch were of course amazing, but what I really enjoyed about it was the full and total confidence. That was something I had never experienced; just having all my walls and defenses completely down.
My motto in life has always been to try everything once, twice if I like it, three times if I love it. Well, something I found pretty interesting happened during my second trip. My first trip was fun, but it had left me disappointed in many ways and wanting more. A second opportunity came up two days later and I knew it would be at least 6 or more months before we'd have another chance. About 8 guy friends of one of my roommates were staying with us at our house and everyone at the house had said they were just going to take it easy that night. My girlfriend and I decided to take some with just the two of us in my room around midnight. We had a blast for about an hour just fooling around and sorting things out about our relationship (it was great for therapeutic reasons) and then we went down to get some more water. Every single person in the house was now rolling; about 15 in total. Britt and I were still rolling hard so we started socializing, watching light shows, etc. I was presenting fully as a male at the time.
So, then I started chilling in one of my roommate's rooms because it was just a few people that I liked. This guy named Troy, whom I had met a few times over at parties at my old house, started talking to me a lot. I had never really had a conversation with him before, but he was actually genuinely holding my interest which is rare indeed. He asked for a back massage from me, not that weird since back massages feel amazing on E but also somewhat weird since guys never ask other guys for massages and we had plenty of females around.
Well, Troy started paying a whole lot of attention to me. He started saying things like, "Nick, you're a really sharp looking dude". I mentioned to him I considered myself bisexual and he said that was kind of hot. I also mentioned to him my girlfriend and I are in an open relationship. After a bit more conversation he asked if he could kiss me. He gave me a quick kiss on the lips and seemed surprised to find out it wasn't weird to him at all. I introduced him to my girlfriend then and we all started talking a bunch.
To say Troy was a catch would be an understatement. His intelligence actually compared to mine, he was pre-med, he had a gorgeous face, he was in excellent physical shape and over six foot, we had almost identical beliefs, and most importantly we could just have conversation with each other and enjoy it. My girlfriend is certainly no slouch either. She's more beautiful than I could ever hope to be even after FFS, has a 3.9 GPA in college, she has all the same beliefs, and we can just hang out and talk for hours and hours. Not surprisingly, Britt and Troy hit it off as well.
After hanging out for awhile, I decided to tell Troy I was transsexual. He didn't know what transsexual meant but after I told him I had a female brain his face just went into a shocked look and he put his hand on his head. Then, he said it made perfect sense. Why it was so easy for him to talk to me, why he was so attracted to me, etc. I've come out to a lot of people I know (probably over 30 by now) and this was the first time anyone actually told me it made sense, let alone someone I had just met. I'm really just not that feminine. After telling Troy this, his interest actually increased, which I didn't think was even possible. He clearly liked Britt and thought she was beautiful, but he also was obviously more interested in me. After a bit more talk we started discussing a threesome. We were all in for it and moved to my bedroom.
A threesome with a guy was something Britt and I had been wanting for awhile. We have had one with another girl (who was absolutely gorgeous) before but we had never even found a guy we were both interested in before, let alone him being interested in me considering my penis. I was always really nervous when I had thought about it before too, but Troy was a smooth guy to say the least. He treated us both fully as females and made us both incredibly comfortable. It was a really fun experience.
We took a break around 7 AM or so. Troy went downstairs. We had all taken another hit of E around 4 or 5 when it started wearing off (it's really hard to come off E) so we were all still rolling and so were most the people downstairs. E has a way of bringing out brutal honesty due to the lowered defenses. Anyways, I had a couple friends down there and they told me the things Troy said, which were amusing to say the least. He had kept saying how cute I was and asking people about it as well as proclaiming his newfound bisexuality. I had gone down after awhile wearing extremely girlie sweats. I wasn't out to most the people there and one guy made a comment. Troy amazingly still treated me the same...he put his arm around me while we were talking and had no qualms even about kissing me in front of them.
We all hung out in my room and just talked and fooled around for the next few hours. Troy had work at noon and when the time came, he basically refused to leave. He just wanted to keep talking to both of us. Finally, around 12:05 we literally had to push him out the door to get him to work.
A few days later, Troy requested if we could all repeat the experience completely sober. We agreed. We had talked and he had realized he wasn't actually bisexual, he just really didn't know much about transsexuals. I thought that made it even more amazing that he had accepted me fully as female almost right off not even knowing that term. Since, Troy and I have hung out on several occasions and he will no doubt remain a friend to me.
I felt like I learned so much from this experience. I really feel like I am probably a lesbian now. If I had a type of guy, Troy would no doubt be it. He was arguably more compatible with me than even Britt. He also is the first person I've ever been friends with that actually has an IQ anywhere near mine. Britt is a really smart girl but her and I both know my intelligence is still a good deal ahead of hers. I just hit the genetic lotto in that regard. In any case though, the feelings I had for Britt from our first time hanging out didn't compare to the ones for Troy. It just wasn't the same...I am far more attracted to her for whatever reason. Britt had thought she was bisexual as well but I think we both sorted all of our feelings out. We both do feel a certain attraction towards guys (mine only started post HRT) but we both just feel so much more attracted to females. Even just kissing Troy didn't feel nearly as fun to either of us.
Since this happening, my overall confidence level has more or less skyrocketed. I was already hard at work on developing a sort of I don't give a fuck attitude but progress was slow. This experience gave me a huge push ahead. Over the past year or so, I've noticed myself becoming more well-liked and more successful in just about every aspect of my life as I become more comfortable with myself. Not surprisingly, my overall happiness level has also risen with my increased confidence. I feel incredibly lucky to have had such an experience; one I know wouldn't have happened without ecstasy because I just would have been too unsure of myself. Thank you MDMA.
That was actually my last minute costume to go to all the keggers over the weekend, too bad they didn't have any brown wigs.
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System Restore didn't do anything :(
Okay, so while my friend was trashed he managed somehow to install VirusBurster on my laptop. He installed the "adult content viewer" from MySpace and it came with that. I'm pretty good with computers, but I just can't get the fuck rid of it. I tried, msconfig, ctrl+alt+del...the works. Can anyone give me a filename I can delete or fucking something to get rid of this shit, it just keeps coming up with "Critical system error" or alerts and it is annoying as all hell.
Start menu -> Run -> msconfig -> Startup -> Disable All
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At 10/2/06 12:39 AM, Fox wrote: "Dreamcatcher" by Stephen King. Possibly the best book ever written.
They also made it into a movie.
*a fucking terrible movie that completely disgraces the book
It's funny, my suitemates are Mexican / Brazil foreign exchange students and they have me correct their essays all the time. And you make exactly the same mistakes they do =) But anyways, it's all your preference. My opinion would be that a girl like that wouldn't be worth dating, but if you're just looking for a one or two night thing...then by all means go ahead. Maybe she's getting ready to break up with her boyfriend and that's why she's flirting around, in which case that's not really that bad. It's really hard to judge when we don't know her character at all.
Thanks, I think that will fix the darkness nicely. Any tips on the sort of bluriness or how to fix my eyes?
I really liked the dubbing in Oldboy, the main voice actor sounded like a hardass, which matched perfectly.
The dubbing of the little kid in Ichi the Killer just pissed me off, it was retarded.
I liked the subtitles in Three...Extremes and Kung Fu Hustle.
It's hard to say, I think it really depends on the quality of the voice actors. Dubbing can work out pretty nicely.
So, I have a dark and blurry picture I want to touch up some. I messed around in Photoshop and thought it came out okay, but my friend showed me the one he did in iPhoto using the enhance option and it was about 10x better. I'm looking for some suggestions on how to do the equivalent in Photoshop. All I could figure out that made it look better was increasing the contrast / brightness and the saturation. I didn't really like the sharpen feature. Is this even doable in Photoshop, or should I just log on my roommate's Mac and mess around? Pics below:
Also, the reason I don't just use the Mac one is because it's smaller because MySpace messed it up when he uploaded it somehow. And I'd like to learn how to do it.
Just got it to do Avenged Sevenfold - Bat Country easily enough.
The topic you made yesterday...
Just what exactly have you been googling =)
At 9/18/06 06:40 AM, Mr-Extreme wrote: how u see the videos ??????
On the cell phone, I'll see if I can get him to upload it.
At 9/18/06 06:25 AM, Mr-Extreme wrote: any pics of the girls =P XD XD XD
They are on the video (or at least I think they should be). Since I've yet to see it, I'm anxious too.
At 9/18/06 03:39 AM, StarF68 wrote: Heh, that's pretty awsome. Is he the same in person as he is on TV?
Seems like it, he was joking around with everyone. The midget was fucking hilarious though, he was pimpin' all the ladies.
At 9/18/06 03:39 AM, Ryan wrote: That's pretty cool, sometimes his jokes are pretty good but the whole racist thing isn't ALWAYS funny. BTW, can you put up that video footage or no?
It's on my friend's cell phone camcorder. I haven't even seen it yet because he left, but I've heard it's pretty funny. Hopefully, he'll upload it tomorrow.
I'm the one in the blue sweatshirt
Story:
We went outside our dorm to go down to the gas station to pick up some late night food. Right next to our dorm is the Morrison Center and we saw a Carlos Mencia trailer there while walking in the parking lot. We decided to walk by and see if anything was happening. We didn't see anything and they started walking away. I said fuck it and knocked on the trailer door, what was the worst that could happen anyways? I start talking to the guy that comes out and let him know we're fans. He tells us we can meet Carlos and takes us backstage where they are still sort of packing up after the show.
There we see the midget guy from the show taking a picture of Carlos with two super hot bitches that are flashing him (we got that on my friend's cell phone camcorder). We hang out there for awhile just talking to everyone until they finish packing. We head outside and get a bunch of pictures, but unfortunately the girl taking most of them didn't do it right so we only ended up with this one and a few videos.
Anyways, they all seemed like nice people. I know a lot of people have problems with the Mind of Mencia for various reasons. I'm not a big fan either. But, I do love his stand-up (and that's what he was here to do). I had a good time at least =)
At 9/17/06 06:12 AM, Enoll wrote: Have to love the drunken adventures.
Got any pics of you now all dinged up?
Here's one just now, but it's kind of difficult to see the bruising in this lighting (it's from the top of my eye down to my chin almost). All I have to take pics now is my roommates Mac and it's pretty dark in here. I'm just now sort of sobering up from tonight and getting ready for bed.
The kind of funny thing is, Cody wouldn't stop talking to me about this all night. He is pretty terrified of getting caught. I have a feeling he was raised Mormon. He's a virgin, and he had the opportunity to get with either of two extremely hot girls last night and didn't take either. I even facilitated it for him. Just another drunken night for the rest of us, heh.
At 9/16/06 11:50 PM, TheFaces wrote: I love how you totally disregarded the sign right next to where it appears you threw it over.
pic 5Also, where is this, I love places like that. This god forsaken desert sucks ass.
I actually live in the desert. Boise, Idaho (I go to BSU). That sign is hilarious, I just barely noticed it.
At 9/16/06 11:19 PM, TheDepthsofHell wrote: you barely got a scratch.
wuss
That was right after. It's bruised up pretty badly right now, people keep asking me if I got into a fight. That isn't what hurts though, it's my right arm, which I can barely move. Luckily, I'm left-handed.
At 9/16/06 11:05 PM, SniperWolf1564 wrote: Ouch. That must of really hurt. I feel bad for your friend Vannessa, though. Her earring ripped out, really big ouch.
She had just gotten it pierced, I think it was a tube thing or whatever in it to widen it. It wasn't just a normal one on the lobe, it was one more from the center. She had to get 10-15 stitches I believe.
I just noticed the sign in this pic. Oh man, I love it. No throwing, haha.
At 9/16/06 10:12 PM, Platinum wrote: Those golf carts sneak up on you, don't they?
Yeah, they're tricky like that. I definitely never saw it coming. Fucking sucker punched me.
At 9/16/06 09:57 PM, Virtrality wrote: I have gone flying from a golf cart one timebefore but the cart didn't flip I just went flying form it.
I feel bad for the girl that had to get stitches :( I wish I hadn't blacked out so I could actually see how far people went. One guy claimed he flew over 15 feet.
My RA just asked me about it, at least he's cool.
At 9/16/06 07:14 PM, jman29 wrote: drunk, yea ur drunk probably...i agree wit the last guy.
So very, very drunk. And the driver was completely insane. I just got back from the Sub and there is grass torn up everywhere from him taking it off jumps and shit before we even got there. If I saw him again I would be tempted kick the shit out of him for being such a terrible driver.
It was shaping up to be a great night of drinking. Around 2:30 Ryan came and asked me if I want to go steal a golf cart, because they already had a key. I didn’t really believe him, so I didn’t go.
I was pretty surprised when at about 3:00 they showed up with the cart downstairs. It turns out it was a campus security cart, and a pretty damn nice one. I hopped on the back right and we took off, going pretty fast for having 7 people on it (Tom driving, Ryan in front with Vanessa on his lap, Cody, Reese, some guy from the 2nd floor, and me were on the back in that order, with me on the far right).
We ride around a bit, heading towards the friendship bridge, which can be clearly seen in Pic 1. It’s a somewhat narrow bridge (not wide enough for a car) that arcs over the river with 5 foot tall steel railings. We turn left on to the bridge, slowing down a bit up the hill, and then picking up some massive speed going down. Tom turns left as hard as he can right when we hit top speed, flipping over the golf cart at an insane rate. Being on the back right when he turns hard left, means the cart landed on me. I black out for about 10-15 seconds, and when I regain consciousness the golf cart is sparking and sort of on fire because the engine had exploded. Ryan takes Vanessa to the hospital to get stitches because her earring had ripped out.
People are getting ready to leave, but me and the kid from the 2nd floor kick them into gear. It’s obvious what we have to do, we NEED that motherfucking golf cart in that motherfucking river. We roll it up to the center of the bridge and try to lift it over to no avail. It probably weighs somewhere between 600-800 lbs. Cody and Reese walk off and Tom is about ready to as well. We convince them all back for one last massive effort and after 30 or so grueling seconds, we finally get it over. It lands with a huge splash and we all take off.
The following morning, Adam went to get pictures.
Me - My face the night of, it bruised up pretty badly today and my neck / back / head are killing me.
Old Golfy may have gotten in the first punch, but I was left with the last laugh. Fuck that cart.
At 9/13/06 06:15 AM, Antarct wrote: Depends who you handed your number to..
BUT
Did you say your number out loud to all of them?
If you did, then it's 50/50%
Yeah, I just said it out loud to all of them so as not to be rude as we were just killing time and flirting with all of them anyways. I wasn't even very serious, I was basically just trying to show up my friend.
My friend and I were going to a late night showing of Crank. We picked up some free waters from the concession stand, noticing that all four remaining employees were female. We sat down in the theater, quickly got bored, and realized we had arrived far too early. We decided to head out to flirt with the concession girls. Two of them were quite attractive and the other two were…not so much. We all talked for a few minutes, and I ended up leaving my cell number with them for the hell of it, thinking nothing would come of it.
Yesterday, I received a call from one of them (Jill). We talked for a little while and I told her I’d call her back Friday night and take her to some parties. The only problem is that I have no fucking clue who Jill is. There is basically a 50% chance that she was one of the ugly ones.
The lesson learned here? Fuck if I know.
Crank marks the first movie ever I've actually paid for to see twice. IT IS FUCKING AWESOME GO SEE IT.
At 9/6/06 08:08 PM, anonymous_08 wrote: Cake song by acted out by real people!!!
Lol It's hilarious. Easily one of my favorite video.
Dear god, I can't stop watching it...
