Okay Newgrounds here's my problem:
After I broke up with my fiance I broke down and went to a psychatry, giving a last attempt to get my life in grip again, I was pretty close to ending it back then.
Anyways, 3 months of clinique helped out for the moment and I met someone new,
she's 31 by now that's 13 years of age difference, pretty tuff for a newcomer like me
but I managed great to fall in love and make her fall in love with me.
but now that I'm out of clinique things have changed again..
and I began digging the same hole, but much deeper,
what I'm trying to say is, I'm losing grip again, completely out of reality yet again.
I spend most of my days in this room on the computer digging through the web and trying to be productive once in a while. It started normally and it almost looked as if I'd have managed to flip 180degrees but neeeh
I fail.
The girl I'm with has huge emotional and psychological problems herself
and though at first it seemed as if we were similar and got along in many ways
it started to break apart.
Im on an egospree currently, aware of her condition and that she's currently suffering without me.
I have a socializing problem and easily ignore everyone else around me.
Seems like I did this for a bit too much this time.
The woman couldn't handle it no more and yesterday we had a long talk on the phone while I was outside in some dark corner being disorientated as I usually am when being outside..
it didn't went well..
Now she's dead. She took her life because I did not proceed to rush to her to stop her even though I knew she had the potential and level of desperation to pull it off once and for all.
Yet I refused to help her out this time.. I just felt icecold and what I did instead is.. impossible for me to tell you now.. but it was awful in such a situation.
Now it's the next morning and all I see is her being offline with a "dead" away status and not answering any phonecalls.
I have no real proof that she already took her own life, but her soul could fade out of her body at this very second.
Now my problem is: How do I activate Toon Link in SuperSmashBros Brawl as a regular fighter?
Do I have a conscience?