At 10/5/08 07:46 AM, Sawke wrote:
Your Problem: You're a clingy little bitch, girls don't like that, especially assholes like that girl who seems to be the queen of them all.
Solution: Stop being a bitch, be more confident, if she rejects you so what? it's just pathetic following some girl like a puppy. She's probably saying "oh..he's nice...but..meh" make HER want you. Don't let her know that without her you are a broken shell of a man, get some balls. Jeez.
I don't let her know.
This one thread is the only outlet I have of this knowledge, and nobody here knows me.
And 'clingy'?
I have exchanged...like....three sentences with her since febuary.
As much as I HAD emotions for her, I never let her know I had them, after the incident, though she isn't stupid.
I've moved on.
But my problem is that I've moved onto nothingness.
And I know, at the time, I made some stupid moves. I've learnt from them, and I don't make those mistakes again.
See, the reason I lost Alicia is because I was the total opposite to how I was with Kelly.
I wasn't clingy, in any form. And, although I did have emotions for her, it clearly wasn't enough.
I think for this to be clearly understood, my other life, I think I'll briefly summarise that this year has been...a quantam leap compared to last year.
This year....I've matured so much. I've learnt so many lessons.
After my mother's attempts at suicide, my dogs of eight years, from which we had as puppies, died from an illness, my inability to find friends that aren't two faced, Kelly and Alicia, the divorce being settled this month, and my life becoming a pointless endeavour...
I don't know, I guess I feel that sometimes feelings are just....something that shouldn't be spent on other people.
Emotions are for the internal struggle.
