Uhh.... Gaaaaaw!! You ruined the ending for me!
On a more 'on topic' note; The clouds looked just fine to me. They did all of the usual things clouds do, such as chainge shape and consistancy while they moved. Oh, and age is a number, but also can represent life experiance which you seem to lack some. I mean, I was listening to a hypnosis/trance thing on my Ipod. Usually it just helped me to get all relaxed and heavy, but that time I actually 'tried' to fold a sort of nothingness around me. I was only able to hold it a few seconds, but the feeling was indescribable.
My point is this: don't go holding some belief like this when you're only fifteen. It'll never end well. People will start avoiding you, you'll never hold a steady job and you'll wind up somewhere you don't want to be. Clear your head, start tomorow with nothing. Drink your coffee, smoke your cig (you 'tard), and look up into the clouds again without a thought in your head. Maybe then you'll see something you missed the first time. Something that lead you down this runnaway train of thought in the first place. Once you're finished looking at the clouds, go back inside. Stare at the floor for a while, picking out patterns in the dirt or scuffs.
Weave some other ideas from those patterns. After some more thought you should realize that beliefs, of nearly any kind, never work out too well. Ideas are better. You can change them to fit your needs.
Example; Once I was talking with a friend and I came to wonder where all the sneases that don't make it go to. I came up with this snease-dimension where the sneases that aren't expelled wind up. They build and build there until some race develops some method that breaks into the dimension, and by that point the universe will have shrunk down exponentially, so when all the trilleons on years of built up snease is released it will blow the universe assunder once again, sowing the seeds for the next generation of life to begin once again, repeating the cycle.
These are the things any compatant Shrink would tell you, not just tell you your crazy and to pop some pills.
