it may be to you, but not to me. dont get me wrong, not to say i don't think it's quite sad, but ive seen more of the evil in the world than most have, so i dont feel that it's right to judge what the saddest thing ever is. there are worse things than random acts of violence, imagine if the soldier that had killed his mother was a friend of theirs who they trusted. ive actually expereanced something similar to that. no one died, but in my case it turned my parents against me when i was only 9. it made them hate me, even if they didn't want to, it's human nature.
:it was the first time i ever wanted to kill. i wanted to see blood spill out. i wanted revenge.
i know how evil the world is, i dont trust anyone, and i always have at least a knife with me, usually 2, sometimes more. i would't hesitate to kill someone in a kill or be killed situation, most would even if they deny it, but maybe im crazy, maybe i just know more than most. what you saw in that video, im sorry to say, is not as uncommon as you hope and think it is. and you might think that in my case, its much less severe than when someone actually dies, and i understand that it would make sense that it would be. but it isnt, death can be let go in your mind, the scars it leaves in your mind fade over time, but if your own parents actually hate you and won't even admit it to you, that's far worse than death. the 2 people you thought you could trust with anything turned against you by a friend trying to line their pockets.
i might be evil. i might be not. i have hatred, something most take for granted. am i really a bad person for wanting to kill? many people say i am. its made me hate them too, i hate religion, it turns people against me, at least the ones who really know me. my parents arent really religious, so i suppose i should be thankful for that, but as to the rest who are and use it against me, they can go to hell. just as they say i will for understanding how the world really is.
:is there a god? he never gave me a reason to believe in him, or to worship him. if he exists, why has he never helped me if he expects so much in return? maybe he's just like the rest of them, wanting more than they deserve.