March 31, 2008
Author's Response:
The Vocal is a sound clip from Lord of the rings.
Ok here it goes. :) The meaning of the song;
About 3 months ago, when I first started producing music, I didn't have much motivation for anything, whether it be music or career or whatever. As I was sitting down trying to learn how to make generic trance I started to think about all the mistakes that i've made in the past, All the " what ifs" and the " If onlys".
I thought of all the things that I wished I hadn't done or all the things I never did that i wished I had. And I tried to convey that emotion into this song. The mixed feelings of sadness, regret, and anger. I did what I could to put them into a tangible form. So after about 13 hours of nonstop work on the song, this is what I got. It had such an emotional impact on me that I couldn't stop, and from this song I started creating everything else. This is the catalyst song for all of my others. Every song that i've made thus far has been indirectly influenced by my mistakes.
( I know this sounds incredibly emo hehe but I can assure you i'm not in anyway an emo kid. )
Which is why you will notice that most of my songs carry melencholy undertones and melodies. It's the only place I can find inspiration to write.
These mistakes was such a big deal for me that I had to make another one because i didn't feel that I had done enough. That's why there are 2 of them.
Everyone song that i've released on newgrounds will be going into a free album called "These mistakes"
I'm not sure if this makes me look like a whiney 12 yr old or an emo kid, but either way THAT is the actual meaning of the song.