A song about living with DPD and moving forward despite everything around you feeling unreal and out of reach. A remix of sorts made with Intro by The XX as the backdrop.

LYRICS:

Pulling for a way up but no one wants to hear me out

I grab this pen and paper and express just how I'm feeling now

Surrounded by these walls, depersonalization

I'm drowning through it all, can I see some realization

I'm still in the desert

I haven't left yet

Struggling through the weather

It's hard to take a breathe

I'm very much alive, I'm just at a fucking distance

I'm way behind my eyes, but no one even wants to listen

They just want to hear yet they don't give a shit

They don't give it thoughts, they treat me like a hypocrite

It's cause they haven't lived or seen from my perspective

Their mind is screwed on closed tight while mine is still defective

I don't even care

if no one believes me

It's me that's living there

it really doesn't please me

You still don't understand

I can feel emotions

I treble in my hands

Hear sounds of the ocean

Instead of feeling water, it's someone else that does

I'm unreal to myself and that's only just because

Detached from this body

Detached from myself

I can feel others but with me it's something else

I'm living a dream, wondering when I'll wake up

And even then it seems, I can't ever make up

The lost years I dreamed, is this purgatory?

It's a hazey depression in the same category

So I'll treat it like a lesson until it goes away

I heard it in a message, it's temporary pain

Suicide ain't the answer to end this hellish game

I need to forge my own path, so I can find my way

Back into my body, been out here for days

I feel like a different person with the same name

I struggle through this journey so I can find my way

Back into my body, been out here for days

It's hard to take a breathe thru the weather

I haven't left the desert

Going on with the songs is the way I cope

Right or wrong, I'm holding on, reaching for some hope

Feeling like it's just a vessel that I own

The inner me trapped inside a dome

Only thoughts that I can hold

Every word that I have spoke

Becoming hollow, I'm cold

Looking thru a tunnel, watching myself grow

I don't know, if I'm alone

when I'm walking down this road

Nowhere to go, I'll build a home

on top of words I wrote

I will look inside to figure out what this means

It's so surreal, it feels like I am living a dream

It's hard to take a breathe thru the weather

I haven't left the desert

Detached from this body

Detached from myself

I can feel others but with me it's something else

I'm living a dream, wondering when I'll wake up

And even then it seems, I can't ever make up

The lost years I dreamed, is this purgatory?

It's a hazey depression in the same category

So I'll treat it the same and I'll struggle through this journey so I can find my way

Back into my body, been out here for days